Fear-conquering-2007

2008 blog...

2008-01-02T22:08:00.000+08:00

Heh... New blog... Cyberspace is unlimited... Dun set limits on it!!! Hahaha... So last entry here... Update ur links ya... Kekeke... Like new year da shao chu ma...

http://hazel-aka-qin-2008.blogspot.com/

Thanksgiving...

2007-12-29T16:02:00.000+08:00

This year... 2007... Is coming to an end soon. Even as I look back... Indeed I have come a long way... This year had not been an easy year to go through. With all the late nites and lots of ppl ard me choosing to give up... It was easy to throw in the white towel and leave, just like the many others who had done it. But I managed to stand strong up til now... Cos God is with me and there is nothing which cannot be done.

It is really amazing how I managed to go through all these with God. I held onto my faith. The only reason which keeps me sane in times like this. At times when I am tired... Truly tired... I know that I can look up and just surrender to my Abba Father... He knows all things... All my troubles are so easy for Him to solve.. But He wants me to handle them... Cos He knows that I will emerge stronger and my character will be moulded through it all.

2007... Has been a year where I conquered my fears... At least the 1st steps. I nvr thot I can ever learn how to drive, learn how to be a senior, learn to be someone who make leaders... But God is the one guiding me, Holy Spirit leading me and Jesus holding my hand and bringing me through the process...

Wanna thank all the people who has blessed me in this year... Felt really blessed!!! Especially to Aunty Shirley... Who gave herself selflessly for the ministry... She treated us to meals after meals... Bday presents, xmas presents... Countless!!! And her attitude behind all these giving is one that God will bless me back as I cont to bless the ppl ard me... She even asked us not to snatch her chance of being blessed by God!!! Very appreciative of the ppl ard her... So humble despite her age... No wonder God blesses her with such wonderful children and family...

Wanna thank my dear dear... He has been with me through one more year of my life... Through thick and thin we've come so far... Even as we continue to walk together, I pray that his desires will come to pass... I'll support u in whatever u set ur heart to do... Just dun forget abt me in the midst of all the getting... kk? :)

Then I wanna thank my parents n siblings... This year I havent spent lots of time at home... So busy with work, ministry, Ken n cg... But they nvr fail to provide for my welfare... My clothes are always washed, ironed, bedsheet changed, table, room packed... Amazing... What else can one wish for?! Thank you!!! I love you all...

Then I wanna thank my cell group ppl... You made a difference in my life... You enriched my life!!! You contribute to my experiences in this lifetime... Through every single one of you, I learnt something... Some attitudes which I need to adopt as well... You are my teacher too... So nvr despise yourself. No matter how long you are, God can use you. As long as you continue to trust Him and let Him use your abilities and talents, you can do great things for God.

Then I wanna thank my ministry members too... YOU ARE THE BEST! You all have a great attitude! Thank you for rising to the occasion, for taking ownership of this ministry. I thank God for giving me this chance to impact your lives. Indeed I have trained up various leaders even as the ministry increase in numbers, i pray that we can draw closer together just like a family... :)

Lastly, i wanna thank God... Indeed, without Him, this year will not be possible... I will nvr have reached this place where I know that I can be a senior... All glory to God!!!

On leave but not on leave...

2007-12-20T23:41:00.000+08:00

Had a hectic week and going to be a hectic week ahead.... Wed was quite alright... Rushing a few things here and there... Then today went for my driving lesson in the monr then went to Kel's place for Denzel's baby shower... Tiring man... Spent the whole day there... Then tml will be a long day too...

Will head down to CPA House to settle my membership thingy, taking too long le... Then going to shop for xmas presents... Then going NUS to pei Ken do his fyp, I'll do my work then... Then movie with Meng... Hahahah... Cos ken dun like cartoons... Or rather after I watch Alvin n chipmunks with him... I dun wanna watch another movie which appeals to children with him... Cos he fell asleep in the movie!!! Faints... Not that the movie was like super boring... It's funny but quite expected la, cos it's supposed to appeal to kids wat... Haiz... Bad experience... So no more... Then he also meeting his friends for dinner, so we have our own programs lo...

Then sat... My friend's wedding... And I am one of the jie meis... Went to meng's to borrow her dresses last nite, so can save a bit... quite broke le... then one time wear only... Heh... Meng, I think I wearing the silky one for dinner... Hee... The morn one i'll wear my own... Yep yep... When u want ur dresses back huh?

So my sat is gone too... Then sun morn is svc... Then I think need to do some work... Lots of things need to be done... Then I gt only one A10 helping me... The A11 is on an overseas assignment... Haiz... So I will need to do her sections cos the A10 overloaded with the P&L things le... And she also dunno how to do the testing for the BS items... So I think I got to zi ji chu ma le... So Mon is supposed to be a hol but I think may need to work too.. Then got svc in JW... Tue... Xmas day... I see how... Wanna rest leh... Muz see my progress tml n on mon... Then wed see if need to go down client's... Haiz... Hope the A10 is ok, then i can rest a bit... No more rest after this le... All the way til end Apr... So really will be relying on God's strength to go thru this... So pardon me if I am a little short tempered and less patient... But I pray that God can help to increase my capacity so that I wont blow up on you... Kekeke.... Thurs is back to work...

There's a song that goes... Back to life, back to reality... And this line just repeats a few times... Nvr got to know the title of this song but class 95 sometimes will play... And especially in the morn when u wake up... it's like so right song... Hahaha... Ok... gt to go sleep le... Tml another long day ahead...

Lesson learnt from warlords

2007-12-16T22:41:00.000+08:00

Went to watch this movie after cg last fri... Picked up some things from that movie... "Da ge shi dui de" Hahahaha... Stupid la, this line... Heh... An impt lesson... A man must honour his words. He must have influence and be careful about the ppl he opens his life. Must really know the heart of the ppl whom you're willing to die for. Is it going to be for the right cause? Dun die for an evil man thinking that he's helping you!!!

But all the above is not what I wanna talk abt... I wanted to talk abt the part where that Da Ge managed to persuade the 3 old men to give him more soldiers to chiong... He managed to get 800. Then he went to approach another warlord (cant remember his team's name... Let's just call him "Desperate for victory"-DFV) to support him. He came with 1,500 men, who are his last men. And this DFV was just just there to support... Onlookers... At the beginning...

So the tactic was that they will need lotsa of ppl to sacrifice, to keep running to break the enemies front line... The enemies gt guns, which range is 300m. The Da Ge's team only got archers, range is 200m. So they will need ppl to run and be the human shields for the archers so that they can reach within range to shoot the arrows... Then they managed to break the front line and went into direct combat with the enemies... Then the enemies sent the ppl on horses one.... Suddenly cant rem the name of this type of ppl... Very nice name one... Anyway, that's not impt... So the enemies sent out these horsemen and they started to kill lots of foot soldiers and archers. Da Ge then sent out himself and the horsemen... They just fought and fought... Til... There was a scene where they are clearly overpowered in numbers... Cos only 800 ppl versus like thousands of enemies... Then they shouted... Bao hu da ge! Cos he was injured la... So the scene was from a top view then you can see the enemies surrounding the da ge's soldiers and he was in the middle.

But even at that time, the Da Ge with the Er Ge and the 3rd bro held on to the belief that they might still be able to win the battle. They begin to put on the mindset that if there's one more i can kill, i will kill cos i would have one less enemy. it was the starfish mindset... Really admire their courage n tenacity...

Then the DFV leader saw them continue to fight despite left like abt 100 men vs thousands of enemies. He felt so challenged. He said "if they are only 800 ppl and can cause that enemies to fall til this stage. What abt us? We need a victory badly" and he led his team in to help to kill the enemies from the outside. and of course, in the end, they won la...

So it's like the da ge's team was only 800 men strong. But it was led by 3 men... They had the same dream, to destroy the enemies and bring peace to that place. I was just thinking today, he had 3 men and he made a difference... My CG has more ppl... More willing ppl who are able to lay down their lives for this cause. Surely we can cause a frantic in the enemies camp... So we can do it! We are stronger... Rachel, Meng, Tam, Xing, Ruix, Ken... ... ... So many, so many... Surely we'll take the enemies camp down... And even the bystanders, seeing our faith will come and help out and we will surely destroy all obstacles... So jiayou my friends... We can make a difference in this age... We can conquer... We can step out of our comfort zone in the transition phase and eventually get the transformation before the year closes... All things are possible to Him who believes... I put my trust in You!!!

I'm tired...

2007-12-15T19:56:00.000+08:00

It's a sat and I'm at home... Usually will spend my time with Ken at his place... But he got a function to go, so i staying at home and reflecting... The year is coming to an end so soon. Amazing how fast this year flew... Last fri i saw 2 of my colleagues doing their clearances on the last day of work... Haiz... I muz say at that time, my heart was filled with envy... But I decided to focus and do work til the day ended...

There are so many things waiting to be done but I dunno what... Wondering what should be my next job and why I am staying on one more year. I think it's just to prove to myself that I have the capacity to do it. The tenacity. I feel that I have the capacity to go thru this coming year... Indeed God is with me through it all and His grace is more than sufficient for me.

Looking at the cg, can really feel Ken's frustrations at times. But like him, I also feel so helpless at times. We have done what we could... I think the only thing left is to pray and lift it up to God. Only you can make a wwwaaaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyyyy.........

Ministry side still alright, not much changes, my team ICs are good, members who are problematic are more or less gone or under control... Need to keep prayin for God's protection over them and their families and everything is fine...

Even as this year comes to an end, I look at the amount of work that is coming... I feel so tired... You knoe wat I mean rite? Haiz... Was looking thru deb's blog and saw my photo with Ken... Scared me... Hahaha... But she missed me... Me too... How I wish there are more Debs in the cg... Then it'll be a breeze...

I got a word for next year le... Really feel so stretched... Another trying year ahead, but at the end of the year, I look back, I would know that God has moved in my life... Increasing my capacity and teaching me to increase in my faith and trust in Him. Looking forward to the next year... But I need to rest... My mind... As long as there are things not completed, my mind cant rest... I got to learn to handle this area better next year... God help me in my weakness...

Happy Birthday, Kaishen!!!!

2007-12-07T00:01:00.000+08:00

Yeah... It shows 1202 on my comp and so it's kaishen bday today!!! Known him for the past many many years... Hahaha... Think got closer only in my sec 3 yr... So ard 10 years le!!! Hahaha... Yep... Really like childhood friends... I see him as my bro... Hahaha... Yep... Jiayou wor! Last year le.... You can do it!!! :)

Going to leave singapore on a short trip on sun... Then shld be back by tues... Life is not easy... Cos my mgr like sucking me dry now before i leave... Trying to make me settle everything b4 i leave, cos if nt he'll have to cover for me... which i think he wont want to... But feeling quite sian... Cos i'm supposed to be on leave le... So still working... Full days in fact...

hahaha... but still ok la... managed to go out after work after ken finished his exams.. we went to vivo yesterday, walked ard n caught a show too... the golden compass... quite nice, but the ending is like u know got 2nd part coming up... cos havent conclude... so irritating... Hahaha...

Yep yep... THen today went to meet meng... I was so late... haiz... thot can leave office at 4... who knows i do work til 630 then left... then 162 takes so long to come... So i changed bus instead... then yep, ken came to meet us too... then we went isetan walk walk... n shop shop... erm.. window shopped... then after that... we went to fish n co to makan... nt that nice leh... no mint some more... haiz... then took bus back le...

tml morn gt another meeting... then the ntu thing... ao tiring... i think i wanna leave early tml man... cannot take it le... on leave still need to work til 6+, 7... so sad... my colleague was saying that i so gd, everyday can go back so early... faints... i go hm and work til 2am, 3am leh... hahaha... some days la... yep yep... so have been helping out at the ntu interviews, talking to the ppl... i think i not very professional... too friendly le... tml last session... before i leave... so think i will hmmmmm... be more formal... dun joke so much le... hahahaha... just be an answer... they ask qns, i answer... hahahhaa...

Happy Birthday Sis!!!

2007-12-03T22:14:00.000+08:00

Hahahaha... Ya, my sis bday today... Somehow didnt celebrate leh... Dunno why.... USually will have cake then bday song singing... Weird... Bro at chalet... Mom sleeping le. Dad's out... Sis watching online movie n tv at the same time... she amazes me by the no of shows she has watched man... Hahaha... She went zoo today, this morn with her friends... Took lots lots lots of photos... Mostly of the animals... Faints... Hahaha...

Yep, my sista is 18 le... Any takers??? Hahaha... Just finished her 'A's n looking for a temp job b4 she starts uni... 1st job!!! Hahaha... I started working when I was in Sec 2 during my hols lo... Hahaha... She good life hor? Hahaha...

Yep... After blogging n checking mail n reading blogs n blogging again... Now is really back to work... Need to finish by tonight cos tml going to meet client le... Haiz... Feeling so sian, no mood to work... But ok la... I think short week ahead... Festive season le... My office gt xmas deco le.... White spray tt kind n also the green green thingy... Hahaha... those deco la... So in the non-working mood le... Heh... XMAS!!! Hahaha... I wanna go hols... Escape!!! Heh... Thank GOD i going retreat soon... Although diff rm from Ken, but at least still can see him everyday... N we can celebrate our anni there... Hmmmm... 9 yrs 10 mths in 7 more days!!! Hahaha... 118 mths le... I wonder how many more to go b4 we can light the unity candle??? Only God knows...

Grease 2007...

2007-12-03T21:40:00.000+08:00

Yeah, that's the D n D theme for this year... Nope... Didnt go n dress up... Hahaha... wanted to post some photos up... but somehow cannot leh... dun wanna try le... But the photos not very well taken, very blur... cos i use slow flash then the ppl taking all chop chop then it didnt turn out very nice. I think i will wait til then send me then see how...

update some other time... need to go start work le...

Some update...

2007-12-02T22:36:00.000+08:00

Time has been flying past me so fast that I dun seem to have time to blog... Hahaha... Partly cos I in office most of the time and by time I reached home, KO le... OR dun wanna on the comp... OR my siblings will be hogging the comp, either watching some movie/serial or mapling... Yep...

So last Mon and tue, I was on MC... My back hurt like crazy so went to see doc... He so nice, gave me 2 days MC to rest... Yeah... But I was out on Tue, running ard, meeting up ppl, giving BS and visiting ppl... Yeah.. So I went back office on wed, went for BS at riverwalk... Thurs also in office, then went for makeup cg and fri went to meet Ken for lunch then work then went to D n D... Yep..

Then on Sat, u think can rest??? Nope... Went for my 3rd driving lesson early in the morn at 1030.. .Hahaha... Early for a sat la... Then met Meng for lunch then Chitty... Hahaha... Funny man... Yeah... THen after that went Orchard and did some things then headed back home And then picked up my lappy n headed down to Kel's.. .To look at Denzel n also visit Juner.. Yep, then the day ended with some fight with meng n rach over the phone... hahaha... Yep... Then someone woke me up at 1230AM!!! And asked me wanna pray or nt... Really felt like killing him... Cos I already told him at 11pm tt i'll be sleeping early... N he told me I didnt hear that.... Faints... Hahaha...

Yep so went svc n gave BS then headed back to Ken's... And I ate lunch n slept... Hahah... Ya lo, so fat now... Hahahah... But had a terrible headache, even now... Haiz... Yep... Then guess wat??? That guy called again!!! HAhaha... Woke me from my sleep at 5+ i think... When I was sleeping so soundly... Wah... I just told him I'm sleeping and he sorry sorry, i call u tonight... Haiz... I was disturbed... Then later ken took a break from his studying n also came up to disturb me... Haiz... I so ke lian... cant even rest properly... Long week ahead... Then need to pack n go overseas le... I need to rest man... Feel so old now... My body protesting le...

Ken has 2 more papers to go... But after that i will be so busy le... my schedule all packed le... Haiz... God strengthen me...I cant fall sick man... I need my body to be functioning at its peak top at this time man... Arghhhhhh!!!!! Sneezing le... I tink I shld go sleep le... I wonder if that guy will call me again??? I think i'll really scream at him... Hahaha...

Being well read...

2007-11-28T23:17:00.000+08:00

Just came back from BS not long... Finally completed the last make up lesson of my FFM... Been some time since I went for BS... Heh... Yep, so happy... Hee...

Was Gabriel who gave the BS... One of the points, being a teacher, you need to be well read. Not just the bible, but also the things that are happening around us. As a teacher, you got to teach your students. Help them to understand the concepts. And then applying them. To be a teacher, you need to love to study, need to live out what you teach, need to internalise the message... ... So many things to do.

But the joy of being a teacher cannot be described. One day, when you see your students finishing the course, moving onto the next phase of their lives. When they start to head towards the goal, the vision you have painted for them. This joy is really overwhelming. No wonder Jesus says enduring the cross, i press on to the upward call of God upon my life. This is worth all the sacrifice. But in order to be a good teacher. You need to be fed. Not necessarily through attending of BS, service. But in your own walk with God, you should be fed... In the end times, where there are no church, will you still worship the Lord your God? The bible says that Daniel did that, just as his custom, even though the decree was sent out to kill everyone who does not worship the idol and worship their own God!

I pray that in the coming year as I grow deeper in my walk with God, that He will show me more truths, more revelations. I pray that my tents will extend, my foundations will be strengthened... I look forward to an exciting year ahead... I'm going to read my new bible once through next year. I'm going to get my driving licence next year. I'm going to get my CPA next year. I'm going to ... ... Exciting!!! 2008 here I come!!! Heh...

Old le...

2007-11-20T23:24:00.000+08:00

Stayed up quite late til 2 plus... today so tired, my whole body protesting... going to sleep soon... cant work le... took 3 hrs to get hm from PS... Was just thinking life is quite boring when there are tons of work to be done but cant seem to get moving. Then I took bus home, seeing the bus stop so crowded, i just boarded watever bus comes heading to the west... took 175... Slept, woke up... Realised I was in a jam... there was an accident... Managed to get closer but dunno wat happened. Think involves SBS buses... The bus was in the middle of a cross junction... One of those big ones near bt merah... then jam, bus supposed to go str but the 'injured' bus was blocking, so took a detour... Hmmm... then i read and took 99 home after alighted from 175. Didnt wanna take umbrella out so took one round... yep... went to church there n back, tt's why took 3 hrs la...

went to see denzel after work today... cute... lots of hair... Sleepy boy... Heee... He was 3.885kg!!! A big boy... Yeah, it's going to be exciting seeing him grow up... Hahaha...

Starting to enjoy fellowship with my cg, heh... funny bunch of ppl... Made me laugh so hard tt i couldnt stop in the train... we were like out of the world like that, so full of joy! Yeah... Great week ahead... I confess n I claim it... God help me to be productive. Give me a new vision... God has indeed enlarged my capacity, difficult to say how, but definitely... Greater things to come soon...

Hectic weekend...

2007-11-18T23:25:00.000+08:00

Went to meet my ex-colleagues for BF - breakfast on sat morn, then went for my 2nd driving lesson... Felt bad, cos most of the things forgot liao, then feel that didnt learn much... Sad... Then went to NUS to meet Ken, bought lunner for us. then watched svc, did some work n went home.

Sun svc then went out lunch with cg then went home, washed up, went to Ken's... Watched a show... Then home and work for a while... Blogging now then going to sleep le... Tml going out to client's... God sustain me... Long week ahead as well...

God is really enlarging my capacity... This is stretching but I know I can do it with His grace... My almighty God is with me... I can do all things thru Christ who strengthens me!!!! AMEN!!!

Dinner on tues nite

2007-11-15T01:36:00.000+08:00

Met Ken for dinner on Tues nite before his meeting... Happened to bump into Joanne and so had dinner with her and Kenneth Lim, Egwin and Lenah (not very sure correct or nt)... But anyway, we ate at park mall la...

And Kenneth Lim asked that qn again... Hahaha... Then over dinner, we got to know that one guy in Joanne's cg is officiated to get attached... Hahahaha... Hmmmm.... Then there is something called the sexual ladder... Which she went thru with him... Interesting... We were quite amused by it... Heh... It was a fun dinner la... Hahaha...

Then I waited for Ken to finish his meeting... Sat at the sofa at the reception there at ymca... Waited for a whole 3 hours... Doing work and reading my story book - the hiding place by Corrie Ten Boom... Read Shaun's blog so went lib to borrow... Exciting man... Then by the time Ken came out, I felt like I was part of the sofa le... Hahaha... Yep yep... Got to go sleep le, if not I'll be sleeping during the update later man...

Training later...

2007-11-15T01:22:00.000+08:00

Today's thurs le... Then tml fri... This week been struggling to go to work everyday... Cos there're like thousand and one things to do... But thank God I got my table... Which i'm supposed to share with someone else, but she like always not around... So i use the table lo... Heh... There's a gal who always sit at my place, but she'll siam when I reach, like no need for me to open my mouth, she'll pack up and move... Heh... Thanks gal, you make my day... Not that I unfriendly la, but my things, my files and stationery are in the drawer, under the table la.... But I keep my table real clean, so that's why lots of ppl like to use, gt lan, gt phones nearby... I share my phone with my right side neighbour but she always on the line, so I moved the left phone to near me as well... Hahaha...

Starting to enjoy myself in this group... In the cave, it feels more at home... And we can on or off the aircon!!! Hmmmmmm, an additional aircon la... So good lo, when working late, we still got ventilation. I hope this group of friends wont quit man... I'll feel so sad and sian if they leave... Realised that I need support to work... So need ppl ard me to let me know i'm not going thru this alone... Need to stock up on my food le... Running low... Hee... Wanna meet my friends' needs too... At nite, when ppl are hungry, it's a vey big push factor for those thots to enter ur head... So u make urself happy by eating some chocolate!!! Hahahaa.... I stock up on hello panda... Need more variety... I shld go shopping soon... Yeah... Prepare for the peak man... Maybe some cup noodles also... Hmmmmm.....

Going for training later, technical update... it's outside office, so tml no need to go office... But the webmail gt error leh, cant access... Dunno got impt mails or nt... Then i forgot to put out of office notice... Haiz.... but dun wanna go back office tml leh... No work... my rest day... not really rest, still need to think and go for the technical update. Where ppl who read new standards come and tell you what things have changed and what things we need to look out for in this year....

Been promoted for abt 3 mths +... Things seem more in control, like I can do my planning any time i want. As long as i can finish them, my mgr wont come and hound me. In fact, sometimes i need to hound my mgrs... Hahaha... Yep, cos they got even more jobs on hand than me... And they have more things to handle... Cos they are mentor managers as well... Yep yep... So still trying to adjust to this new kind of responsibility... Helping out as mush as i can also... But I guess there muz be a balance to helping... There's only so much I can do... I got my own things to do as well... Seems a little behind time, my schedule looks quite pack in the coming few weeks... God, mulitply my time... Let my planning be done in super short time, but still quality work... Help me, tell me what to write, what questions to ask... Only you can make a wayyyyyyyyyyyyyyy............

Friday...

2007-11-09T13:20:00.000+08:00

This week has really flown past like wa, so fast, it's fri le!!! Oh my God... Despite the short number of working days, it feels like so much things have been done... Hmmmmm, lots of things waiting for me to do... Feel quite tired le. Haiz, peak hasnt started lo... Really need lots of strength and encouragement man...

I wonder where encouragement will come from... Lots of discipleship needs to be done, but ppl are not ready for it. It'll just fall on deaf ears... I pray that everyone's heart will soften. Everyone has a deep deep deep hunger to seek God, love God. The fear of the Lord be so strong upon their lives that they just want to do His will. God, come and move as only you can in this cell. We're willing...

We look to you... Only you can make us wholeeeeeeeeeeee.... This is my prayer today... ... ...

My today... Monday...

2007-11-05T21:11:00.000+08:00

Took leave today... Cos I saw the siong weekend which I was going to have last week, so planned ahead... And indeed, i woke up at only 8am today... Heh... Usually i need to leave home by 8am in order to catch the bus... still sick... quite bad indeed... coughing... haiz... dunno how... my throat super irritated... Itchy and pain... Haiz... Strepsils only eases the pain by a little and for a while only... Laid hands on myself n prayed b4 i slept last nite. Think will do that again tml.

Today gave my 1st cl lesson to 3 guys in my cg. the last time i gave bs was also to 3 guys... Also the same lesson, cl 1... But different ppl totally. I was sad... Oops... I already rushed down... Haiz, so sorry... So instead of starting at 1215... I reached slightly before 1230... Then went to somewhere near YIH to have the BS. And 2 of the 3 had yet to get the book. Haiz... Can faint... Then I told myself, lots of things to teach... Really lots... Was feeling quite frustrated at 1st, cos they reached early, then didnt like go zap the notes fr one guy who had bought it! But i look at them, then they were like but copyright rite? Haiyo, not asking u to zap the whole book. Just asking u to zap the notes for that one lesson. then when u get the book, can copy over and DESTROY the set u zapped. And copyright law allows u to reproduce 10% of the book max. You're zapping one lesson --> 10% rite? So think it's allowed... But I muz stress... It's so that u can follow the BS la, not to save money!!! And tell me how are 3 ppl going to share a book??? When we sitting on different side of the bench??? Hai yo... THen i made them go run n zap the notes. And I waited...

I remember last time b4 each BS lesson, I will read the notes on the way down cos I want to prepare myself what pst will be sharing... And it's CL already, not CIC or GS... Haiz... But ok la, the BS went quite alright... With my coughing every other point... Heh... But really hope they received it into their spirits, the imptance of the word of God. I kept telling them abt army... Cos i feel really strongly that they have to start building up their faith and priorities now. If not they sure will backslide during army days. So now is the time to build them up. Make sure they know the word, memorise the word, pray, commit to svc n cg... ... Funny for a gal to teach brothers abt NS rite? hmmm... But i also know quite a lot abt army ok? u can ask shen if u dun believe... Hahaha...

Really quite burdened with the guys in the cg... was looking at pre-service prayer meeting yesterday... The gals were like abt 7 - Meng, jas, rach, tam, devi, min n me. then the guys only gt jan, xing n ken. Nich only reached abt 10 min b4 pm ended. The rest all late, some were unaware, some overslept, some got other excuses. Felt so sad and burdened. Cos u call this an army of God? Where most all the gals chiong-ing??? I dun mean gals cant chiong. But arent guys supposed to lead the pack? arent guys supposed to be the men? Like in our country. Only guys are required to do NS - compulsory... Gals optional - unless u opt to go be officier that kind of manly gals la... If not no need mah... THen our CG like gals are the soldiers, then the guys just like... Haiz... i dunno what to say... So really hope my BS can wake them up. Wake up their idea... If you're serious with God, it's time to make a decision to do the things which will help in your spiritual walk. If i know I cant pray well, my QT not very long, then i will think of ways i can improve. Pray with cg members over the phone every day, come for every pm... Pre-svc or pre-cg... Be hungry for God, press in... And at the end of the day, I know that I'm after God and I can grow faster if I just sleep lesser, sacrifice a little more each day, watch lesser tv, etc...

To me, how to overcome all obstacles is not by reason or mind... Cos God's ways are higher than our ways. Things which I can do in the past is not longer a challenge. Things which it seems impossible to be done, God will help me. He will not give me something which i cannot bear. In every thing that comes my way, it is part of God's plan to change me, increase my capacity... So I know that I need to pray, I need to rely on Him even more. So I wont use my reason, like God can only do this for me if I fulfill my this other obligation. I have to give up this for that, I'm planning for the future... I understand la, but i rather believe that my Abba Father loves me... That He can do exceedingly, abundantly, above what i can ever ask or imagine. So I would rather stretch my faith a little... That God can give me both A n B, not A or B... (Given that both are in the will or God)... I pray that everyone including myself can realy increase our faith in God step by step. Lillian can beleive God for using her to resurrect a boy. My faith is not to that level yet, but I want to dream that, I want to visualise it that one day, I can also do that. So I want to stretch my faith each day... Especially now, BF season, it's an exciting time. Time to take out the sword and shield... So I want to do greater things for God before the year is up...

I'm starting to think of plans for next year le... It's already NOv... VEry soon, u'll take out ur goals card n see if they have been completed... And Start to plan and pray for the next yr... I foresee that Jan to Apr will be busy busy busy... So i want to start planning for next year le... It's nvr too late or too kiasu to start planning now... Hee... THen muz save save save also...

Just went a wedding dinner on sun. The couple knew each other for 7-8 years, dated for half a year and he proposed... THey got married in 5 mths time!!! Ken was just saying, they can celebrate their 1 yr anniversary during their honeymoon or even aft that... I've been with Ken for 9 years n 9 months less 5 days... And wedding is not in the picture yet... haiz... looking ard, ppl are getting married... really can feel a bit sian n sad... but well, at least it's getting closer le... Kenneth Lim would ask Ken when we getting married every time he sees us... Makes Ken feel so stressed... Hahaha... Just realised that Joanne is my age... And she has been married for 2-3 years!!! Hmmm... I wonder when is mine coming... hahaha... Ken suddenly appeared beside me and reading... Got to go le... Hahahaha... wat timing man...

In NUS now...

2007-11-05T18:42:00.000+08:00

Had a siong weekend... went to malaysia on Sat for a one day tour... Co event... Paid only 15, the rest sponsored, so why not... Quite fun la... took quite some photos... but lazy to upload into the comp... ok ok, will do so soon...

Here's what we did on sat...
1. Met 10am at Kranji
2. Went to desaru for seafood lunch
3. Went to shop ard the lunch place
4. Went to Ostrich Farm...
5. Went to Desaru fruit farm for a tour and shopping
6. Travel to Kota Tinggi
7. Took ferry to go see fireflies
8. Dinner at Kota Tinggi
9. Home sweet home

Sun was pledging weekend. after svc was fellowship time with the cg at cineleisure ljs... then i went home and prepared myself... freshen up for the dinner at pan-pacific. Sat at the same table with some of the JE leaders... Very funny group of ppl, we laughed our heads off throughout the whole dinner... The food was also not bad and the portion was large... we were all so full at the end of the day. then when we came out, it was pouring.

We had to wait for an hour for a cab!!! haiz... then mon was off... today... great day!!! yeah!

Looking forward...

2007-11-01T21:42:00.000+08:00

Although it's the end of the year... Although I've just been thrown 4 more jobs in this week... Although my FY06 job has not close... Although there's tons of work waiting to be done... But I'm still quite happy... Hmmm... Not happy abt the above things, but the things to come...

Will be going for mentor outing to malaysia for 1 day this sat... although not very close with the ppl in the mentor group, but think i shld be able to enjoy myself... just see see lo...

Then the planning for the jobs... Although 4 more just came in, but i hope that i can really finish them before the dateline... I think it's quite possible... God gives me efficiency and favour... And I pray that the joy of the Lord will sustain me... One more year... I know I can... For the grace of God is more than sufficient for me...

Then going to start new round of BS this weekend... Been some time since i last had BS. but i know it's going to be good. A very good avenue to disciple and teach the younger members...

Ministry wise still about the same... Think the move in Dec will result in some discomfort and adjustments, but we'll get used to it very soon... cos we are all changing all the time... Heh...

then just started learning driving... Quite fun... Heh... going to have the next lesson on 17th nov... each lesson spent $39... quite ex but really fun... Haahaha... i really looking forward to the next lesson... Hope that i can pass one time round, then no need to spend so much... Hee...

What am I doing here???

2007-10-31T23:01:00.000+08:00

Am supposed to be doing my work then happened to have wireless then just so started to surf net and decided to update my blog...

yep... feeling better le... still having the nasal voice... but not that bad le... at least my nose is not running... Hahaha... Oh no... i didnt bring my charger home... left 45 min... Hmmmm...

I think i can save the batt for work... Ciaoz...

SICK...

2007-10-29T00:34:00.000+08:00

Was feeling all so feverish today... terrible headache... kept sneezing and my nose starting to run... think tml will be on MC... Having rashes also... Haiz, so sian... Today was a long day, very long day... I need to sleep le... God heal me... Refresh me and strengthen me...

Why Why Why???

2007-10-25T22:34:00.000+08:00

Was feeling a bit sian today... I went to apply for leave during the peak period to go for my pract driving test... On the 10th of Apr... Thot can pass it and then can celebrate my 10yr 2 mths anni n also early celebrate Ken's 25th bday... It's his quarter of the century bday le!!! Then my mgr say cannot go... As in he cannot approve it... Then so happen the HR mgr was there, so he asked her... Then the result is... Muz print out the booking page... Then submit the application form with the booking page to the head of audit for approval ==> Partner to approve... HaiZ... So stupid lo... I got no booking during that period of time and it's like only one day??? Then also cannot... Haiz... Think go get MC on that day la... Hahaha... But a bit sian lo... Regretted not taking my licence during uni time... So pls... Go and get it while studying... It's so much easier...

Then I just came back... From gym... Heh... Went on mon also... Hmmmm... Oh... I knocked off early on mon... then went to the jurong west gym... Nice... The toilet also nice... Heh... Then today went to jurong east one... A bit shocked... Like went in at 2030? Then got like 15 guys n say 2 other gals ard... Then the place so small... (as compared to the jurong west one la)... the eqpt also like a bit shaky kind... Haiz... Think I shld go office one instead le... Free somemore... Just a bit far la... Hahaha...

feeling a bit stressed from work... It's like end of oct le... then my planning still havent finished doing... Then like so many on hand, dunno which one to start first... Cos all the mgrs nt chasing me for it also... So aiyo... my cg ppl all like gearing up for exams... Then the last one is ken, over in early dec - 5th if i not wrong... Then after that... My peak will start... end of dec to apr next yr... but looking at things... i feel the peak will stretch til jun... haiz... cos i got booking in may... Sad...

Anyway, i think i not going israel le... looking at the bf amt... I really got to pray real hard... God got to provide man... Believing God for a miracle within the next few years... Hahaha... Asking God to confirm the amount... Really dun wan it to go up anymore... Feel so stretched le... Hahaha... But some things are beyond my control... I'll be willing and obedient... Then i can eat the gd of the land... Hahaha... I'll tell myself to be obedient and be willing... Give cheerful... As i sow in tears, I will reap in joy! Yeah!!!

I met a long time fren today... We try to meet up once a yr kind... She said she saw a change in me... Can see that I have grown... Quite happy... Cos this year hasnt been easy for me... Lots of my close frens left the office le... Then nursery side got more n more responsibilities... CG just multiplied also... Yes, finally... Yep...

Let's do a check... I've survived Jan to Apr... think 2 nites didnt sleep at all... Not bad... Not too many... And I've overcame it! Then may... cant rem much of it... then after that... then got promoted... went for core trg then did a jun yr end job... then started to do my portfolio... in bet take some toil... then now need to really settle down n do some planning le... Yep... ALso I've finally stepped out to start learning driving... Yeah!!! 3 cheers... Yep... Passed my basic n final theory... Now need to start pract lesson le... Then take my final pract on 10th apr... Also planning to learn guit... but my fingers so bu ting hua... Haiz... So in the next few months before the end of the year... I would have driven a car with my instructor next to me... Learn a few chords and know how to hold a guitar... Finish all the dec yr end planning in prep for the peak... Start my bs class... Help out in the shuffling of helpers for the shift to jurong... Wow!!! Seems like the next 2 months also not easy... Oh ya.. And the resort in early dec!!! Hahaha... Exciting man... No rest... Chiong ah!!!

Woah!!!

2007-10-25T00:16:00.000+08:00

Time flies... Havent been updating... Heh... Cos have been in the office then cant access blogs... So... Yep... Life's been busy... Busy and busy... Working everyday... sat is like the rest day then sun is another siong day then back to work...

Peak is coming up... Quite not looking forward to it... It feels so different now... The pressure is different... So much planning to do... But dun dare to charge... Then sign in unassigned then got to live on the edge like dunno when ppl will page for u that kind of thing? Haiz... Living in a world of uncertainties... Like I dun even know wat time I can knock off... This is so sian lo...

My CG just multiplied... 3rd week le... Still getting to know one another better... My dearest rachel going diving this weekend... Muz take care k? Then exam period round the corner... Some having papers today, tml... Everywhere...

Ministry wise also planning for the move back to Jurong le... Dunno how it's going to be like... Not easy... Lots of planning to be done... Hmmmmm... Ppl, can u all stop being so flicker-minded? Make up ur mind la... Where u wanna go??? We're all trying to serve God with all our hearts n all our mights rite? So decide and stayed planted la... Rain or shine, be there... That's how u be a pillar mah... Become the core ma...

Hahaha... Not angry... Just frustrated... Change here change there... So ma fan... Ya...Then the angel mortal game is ongoing... So be nice angels kk? CG wanna play or nt??? Hahahaa... Maybe can even suggest to my mentor group to play angel n mortal also... Heh... I very mang now... Wait til I more free la... Whahahaha...

That's all for now... Ciaoz...

New beginning...

2007-10-14T20:24:00.000+08:00

New CG, very different from the previous cg... Much younger... Hahaha... Still the only committed working adult... Things are going to get busy... Quite tired...

All the fellowship and integration and all the things that need to be done... Nursery side commitment think going to increase as well as the church moves partially back to jurong.. Lots of arrangements need to be made... Can faint...

Then peak really coming soon... Wonder if can get thru it man.... Havent even closed one job... Haiz, really demoralised... Was talking to ppl my snr... All say 1st yr snr need to put in the hours... I really really sad man... Haiz, cant wait to get out... I need to press in press in...

This week, pst preached abt dun let ur circumstances, the reality be a limiter in ur life. I told ken wat i wrote n he kept laughing at me... Made me so angry... Then today he went svc and pst said write 2 things... And he wrote what i wrote too... Hahaha... Wonder if it will come to pass...

Been praying for the amount to pledge this time round... Really excited... As I move on one more year in my working life, there are more things to consider and I really need God to guide me... Really excited...

2 more days...

2007-10-03T23:23:00.000+08:00

Time flies... The week is almost over and the day is coming real soon... Even as I read through the blogs of the ppl in the cg... Some really touched my heart... Tear welled up in my eyes... I'm sure fri someone... Maybe many will cry... Not say sad, but there's an element of sadness...

BUT... More of excitement... Even as the week comes to an end... I wish fri would not come so soon, but yet on the other hand, that it'll come sooner...

Got to go le... Talk more after fri cg ba... Think yuanxing need to stock up on his tissue paper...

In NUS now...

2007-09-30T19:40:00.000+08:00

While waiting for Ken, I decided to blog...

Today had svc, was serving... Then went for blood donation and then fellowship with the cg before coming to NUS to find Ken... Then later going for dinner with Ken's family...

Had great fun fellowshipping at BK at raffles city... On the way down, we kept talking abt u in diff cg le, u shld go and sit somewhere else that kind of jokes, etc... I feel it's good to like prepare ourselves for the change... But I feel somehow that the cg is closer now... It's feels like 6 more days, let's spend more time together... I cant bear to part with u.. I didnt know that i needed this person in the cg so much... I didnt expect this bro or sis to be in a diff cg from me... All the true colors start coming out... Suddenly everyone becomes so appreciative... Hahaha... Agree rite? Who booked seats for u? Huh? huh? Hahaha...

Yep, but just thought of sharing this... In the new cg, whether still under Ken or nt... It's a new CG altogether. We need to learn to work within our new cg... Support the CGL and run the vision that he/she has for the new cg... Whatever prejudice or misunderstandings against anyone, throw it away... In the new cg, it'll be a new start. Dun go to the new cg with the same mindset. Looking the replacement best fren, etc. God will bring you into a new envt. A new group of friends who will run another leg of the race with you. So dun keep looking back and get stuck in where u are today... Move on cos the things which God is going to do in your life is going to be so exciting, so so so exciting... Yep... So let's pack up our feelings... And gear up to a new start, Amen? Let's be good members, supporting our cgl and not just that... All of us shld aim to become good helpers... Best helper in the cg... Amen? :) LEt's work towards it together...

Short post...

2007-09-29T16:51:00.000+08:00

I need to get back to work le... Faints, it's 451pm le... The day almost gone le... Just wanna say a big thank you to those who celebrated my bday!!! Really blessed, got financial blessings too...

Dinners after dinners, 2 necklaces... Nice... a bottle of perfume... One earphone on the way... a new bible.. 1st eng bible tt's a present!!! Haha...

My laptop no batt le. Starting posting the entries when it was 100%!!! Now only 4% left... Needa go charge it le... See u all soon.... Bye...

W302, this is for u...

2007-09-29T15:34:00.000+08:00

W302... I remember the various leaders who had been with me since I came... The ppl whom I've worked with before... Khen Theen, Jelaine, Selena, Joseph, Edwin Chen, Gerald Wu, Morgan, Shaun, Jean, Kevin, Wanyun, Laiyin, Gerald Tay, Jav, Rick, Shen... Even as Ken started to take this cg, it was not easy at first as some of the ppl dunno who he was!!! Hahaha... But things have changed, as Ken takes up ownership of the cg and plan and pray and led this group for the past 3 years, our lives have been changed during this process... Ok ok, enough of reminiscing the past... Here we go...

Ken: You're the best... Haha... Nvr fail to remind me who is the best cgl... My partner in the cg... At times, when things and situations seem to overwhelme me, u'll be there to ensure that I'm still on the right track, pulling me back to see things from a bigger perspective... And overcoming my situations with me... My best cheerleader n supporter... Luv ya lots...

Yan: hugs to my dearest sister... Even as you move on to another cg, dun be sad. Know that the things which you can do are beyond the sky. Dun limit God... For He can do great things with and for you, be open to changes.
You know, when Ken asked to guess which cg who will be in, I told him that i believe that yan will move on to another cg... And i was right. In the past 3 years, you've given urself for the vision of ur leader. Even in the new cg, give urself to ur new cgl n support her yeah? Know that u'll be able to reach greater heights in ur new cg... Keep in touch... Huggies...

Yuanxing: u're the siao kia who will talk to me into the nites abt the things in the cg, ur ministry, ur dream... Haha... Nvr will I imagine that u will become one of my closest fren in the cg... To think that u were my student!!! Whaahaha... Nvm... but dun call me ms seet le la... That's history... Heh... Anyway, just wanna tell u to cont to stay teachable... Even as u thanked Ken, it doesnt mean ur life is going to be w/o any more thorns... in fact more will come... Hahaha... as u overcome one, u can overcome many more. Yeah, i'll cont to nag at u... Be a GENTLEman... Be more meticulous... Until u become a lamb... Wahaaha..

Kgoon: U came across to me as one who is so intellectual... When u just joined the cg, i was so stressed by u cos u'll ask bombastic questions... Wow... Was really impressed by your quest to know God, to understand Him... Even as you move on, know that we're all running the same vision together... Hope that I've imparted some stuff to ur life too... Hahaha... So all the best... Be the pillar in the cg, someone whom ur cgl can depend on you... Yeah...

Dennis: Always look up to u... You're so independent... Able to survive here alone but yet not give up on urself... So many ppl have come n gone but u chose to trust in God... You always care for the ppl ard u, taking care of their needs and ensuring that they are not lost. So inclusive... You'll go far... Dun be limited by ur own mindset or thinking... Dun be limited by the time... Sleep less if the need arises, God will give u the strength to go thru each day. Even as you are going to graduate next year. Know that u'll do great things for the glory of God! :)

Laimeng: Hahaha... You're always so cheerful n liven up a place wherever u go... Amazing... Thanks for being the sis doing things together with me... Know that I can always trust you to get things done... Be open to changes, last min changes... hahaha... Be available... N u can do greater things for God too...

Tammy: U're quiet but yet able to be so noisy at times... Hahaha... A really sweet gal, one whom i can trust to get things done too... Hee... Thanks for being there always... Be more outspoken, no fear... Over the past few years, you've grown to do greater things for God... Cont to practise ur guit... God can make u become a great guitarist... :) Stay pretty n sweet ya? Heh...

Ruixiang: Are u still in NS? Hahaha... You're always out... Always able to strike up a conversation with everyone... One who doesnt sleep a lot as well... Haha... Always looking for avenues to serve... A brother who can be depended upon... Best!!! Yeah... Vjruix rocks... Heh...

Changyan: U're the youngest in the cg, but yet the most serving person around... Cont to seek the Lord, but dun neglect ur studies... Plan and work for a bright future. You need the education to survive in Singapore... So dun play too much, work hard and achieve good results 1st... Then you can be a person of influence! :)

Weijun: you're a rock... Even in NS, you're nvr wavering. Thanks bro for being a pillar in this cg... Even in the new cg, cont to be a pillar too... So faithful, so accountable... God will make a way for u as you cont to entrust Him with ur life...

Yuna: You have changed too... In the past few years, even as you learn more abt the word of God and trust Him more... You have become more cheerful... Made more friends... And more importantly, your perspective of life has changed to become more positive. Continue to be moudable and God can bring you to places! :)

Yuze: A designer... One who sacrifices sleep for the dream which has shown him... Cont to stay focussed. Know that as you put God 1st in all that you do, you can do greater things for Him... Be an influencer in ur school!!!

Isaac: A brother you can trust on to pray for you. One who tirelessly seeks the Lord... Even as you move on to another cg, cont to be the prayer warrior there. Move on, dun keep looking back like Lot's wife. Be teachable and quick to change... God is going to bring u up to another new level... So be open to changes, be availing like how you've always been. Make new friends and be an inspiration for them!

Jan: A man not limited by his physical abilities... One who is hungry for God and will go all the way to meet God. Bro, continue trusting in God to bring you to do greater things for Him. Dun limit God... He is beyond what you think He can do for you!!! Jiayou, as you grad next year, things are going to get exciting!!! Hee...

Yuhao: A funny brother... Haha... Nvr endless things you can talk man... Hahaha... As you serve tirelessly in ur ministry... Dun forget that being part of a cg, you have a role to play in the cg to. Cont to avail urself, but not forgeting the lives of the ppl you can influence in the cg. Have the desire to impact the lives of ppl in ur cg like how the lives of the kids are changed under ur care. You make a good shepherd. Cont to pray for ppl ard u, touch lives and save them...

Weilie: Even as you hunger for God, know that He will honour u... Got to know you better when I gave you bs... You are so hungry, wanting more... Cont to stay this way... He will bring you to places... Cont to seek Him 1st... Press in!!! Believing with you for the salvation of ur family!!!

Zhixing: One who leads a very discplined life... Cont to put God 1st in ur life and He will do great things in ur life... Enrich your life, get out there and do things which u enjoy... Life is more than just school, books n cca... You live only once, live it to the fullest!!! :P

Runling: You've been in this cg for less than a year? But you're always there... Hahaha... Can depend on you to turn up... One who quietly sows, just like ur bro... You're a pillar in the cg...

Tsoonliang: Gt to know you slightly better as I start giving you bs... Continue to press in, be hungry for Him always... Read the word, pray daily... These are the basic things which a Christian do. You have the potential to do great things for the Lord. Dun be limited by the situation you are in. Know that God is with you and you have the victory! Cont to grow and learn from ur leader, ya? :)

Siewling: You've been with us for more than a year le... Dun be limited by ur circumstances or be ruled by ur feelings ya? Dun limit what God can do in your life. My greatest desire is to see you growing strong in the Lord. Planted in church and a cg... Always trusting God to open up doorways for u... Helping you through the things which you're going thru...

Alvin: Even as you have just started to join us. And as we mulitply into the new cgs, you will grow too, under the care of ur cgl. Cont to seek the Lord, love Him and trust Him. THen ur life will be full of adventures too. Do not worry abt anything, know that the Lord your God will provide for you! :)

Xiangxuan: You've been one who had ran the race together... Hope that you can come back n be planted in the cg and the church... Always acknowledge what God has done for you. But know that He can do even greater things thru ur life, only if you allow Him to...

Huixin: Hope to know you better as the days go by... Cont to trust God and He will turn things ard... Will be praying together with you... :)

Pavi: Hope you will come and join us more often... One day, you will get to know our God and become part of this family. Running this vision together with us.

Everyone else who have come to join us in our outreaches:

Come back and join us whenever you're free... Although the ppl in the cg may not be the same, but all of us are fun ppl... Hahaha... YEah, so we welcome u back and hope to see you soon!!! :)

So I think I didnt miss anyone out rite? Just wanna say... No matter which cg you're in. Know that God has a great plan for u. Cont to seek Him and be hungry for Him, and He will grant you the desires of your heart. God is a God who is beyond what we can think He can do for us, so dun limit Him, dun limit what He can do in your life!!! All the best and keep in touch!!!

Oh ya, my books out there... Pls return me my books if you've borrowed... Unless you havent finished reading, then just let me know... And to Juner, thanks for lending me ur books... I've finished 2... The last one still halfway thru... Return them to u soon... Thanks!!! :)

Multiplied Finally...

2007-09-29T15:11:00.000+08:00

Yep yep... After almost 3 years of being together, we finally multiplied... There's a happy and sad feeling to it... But it's for growth... Looking back at the time when I was multiplied into E198 til now. Things are no longer the same... And I am no longer the same. The closest friends I have now are still those from E198... In W302 for the past 3 years, working with Ken to take care, mould, inspire and challenge all the different ones... Lives being changed and ppl doing great things for God. Life is exciting...

In this new group, things will no longer be the same... I have once again step out of my comfort zone to touch lives once again... And this is going to get uncomfortable.... But this is how God is going to increase my capacity... During the past week, it's been like a roller coaster week... I sent my files in for partner to review and then i took leave on wed to celebrate my bday and then on thurs, i didnt sleep in order to rush work out... Cont working on fri n then went for the multiplication cg part 1... at the end of the day, when ken announced which cg each person was in... I was ok, cos i already know where i'll be... hahaha... i knew i'll stay with Ken la... Yep... But this doesnt mean that life will be cruising from now on... It's time to once again arise and put my hand to the plough... With my increased workload in office, increased responsibility in nursery and my family, as my sis goes into Uni next yr in jul... Things will not be as simple as it seems... I can just see the things which are coming... And not forgetting the building fund which is coming in 5 weeks!!! Wow wow wow!!! Time is really no enough... Went out with Shen, yun n jean after cg last nite... a gd time of catching up and fellowshipping... Had fun... these are the ones who have gone thru my tough times in uni with me... growing stronger in the Lord together as we go for GOTP together... Now, everyone's in a different cg, but when we meet together, it's so nostalgia... hahaha... everyone's moving into a diff phase, as the guys are going to grad next year... who knows what life will be aft that... and even aft we get married and stuff, will we still be best of friends? No one knows the future, in my part, i can only keep my dearest friends in prayers...

was thinking who was my best friend in the cg... it wasnt easy to decide... I admit that in this cg, i didnt really commit myself to touch lives... Even as I look back, everyone in the cg saw me as boss' gf... It was easy to gain respect cos of Ken... But I wanted ppl to see me as me... A position that's mine... not on 'borrowed respect' and i threw myself to my ministry... Availing myself, taking up more responsibilities upon myself... Indeed God is good, I was promoted as the svc IC during the year... And I see myself as a 'cgl' over my members and my team ICs are like the core helpers... I always try to impart things which I learnt in cg, from Ken n aunty to them...

Now, even as I step into the new cg... I know that i need to touch lives in my cg as well as this is where God has planted me. No doubt that I still need to work n take care of my helpers in nursery and my family... But I just know that I need to press on, trust God more. As I look back at the end of next year. I know that my God is with me and the things which He has enabled me to do will be much much more than whatever i can achieve now. I need to be super efficient as the peak is coming... I need to be super duper efficient if i want to serve God during my spare time... I want to be known as Huiqin in the cg, not ken's gf... not that i am not proud of being his gf, but i want a name for myself... haiz, dunno if I'm getting across...

In the past few years, so many ppl have come to joined us and many have left us as well... Not wanting to run this vision together, unwilling to change and all sorts of reasons... At this point of time, even as I stop to evaluate myself, i thank God for the friendships I have made here... Ppl I can trust, depend on and always there to support me. and not forgetting some siao kias who are willing to do things which a person in a normal state of mind will nvr do... Hahaha... The sleepless nites which we had cos my my bright ideas, supper, sending ppl off at the airport... Hahaha... Wanted to type a msg for everyone... Hmmm... Maybe in my next post, this post a bit long le... Hahaha... Yep, maybe after i publish this post, i'll click new post again... Hee... So bye n come back n read the next post ya? It's dedicated to ppl in W302... Yeah...

So blessed...

2007-09-25T09:42:00.000+08:00

Had 2 more celebrations since the last time I blogged... My cg and the nursery leaders celebrated for me last sun... Was just thinking if I did not become a Christian back then, what would my life be like? My bday will be celebrated by my family only... And I wouldnt have all these friends ard me now...

So really blessed by what my friends have done for me. Got a new bible, a top, a necklace... Hee... I know the rest are on the way cos I smart ma... Hahaha... No la, I answered someone's call to Ken n something just tells me that she wanted to ask him wat I want... Hahaha...

But looking back, I really thank God for bringing me to where I am today... SO many loving friends who I can depend on and who will keep me company to eternity!!! Hahaha... U dun like the friend next to u??? Change him now!!! Hahaha...

Yep yep... Was on MC yesterday, so slept n slept til 1+... Then somewhat recovered... Accumulated fatigue... Then went for lunch, then went to find dennis n teach him guitar... Not me la, Ken taught... They had fun trying the new worship song... Then we flew down to airport to pick his mom... Then went home for a while before going to miramar for buffet dinner... ate til so bloated... then went home n sleep... Didnt sleep well... Woke up like every hour... Faints... Think too full le, then hot and everything... So tired today... Haiz...

But I think i gaining weight le... Sat nite went for yin's n gerald's wedding dinner, then sun nite went for dinner with the nursery gals n their parnters... Then last nite buffet dinner at miramar... Faints... This coming wed i going out with ken, that's tml... Heh... dunno wat he planned also... Then sat going with my family for dinner and Sun with Ken's family... Wa!!! Sure need to lose weight after that...

But so blessed... My friend was commenting... Wa, u got so many ppl to celebrate ur bday for u!!! I was thinking, yep, u be a christian, and u'll have lots of friends to celebrate for u le... Hahaha...

Great day starts with positive confession...

2007-09-21T10:03:00.000+08:00

Was so happy last nite... Finished the things which i set out to do. I managed to submit my file for the PIC to review... Then finish typing the stock list for aunty and managed to go find her and pass her the stuff before going for zm at riverwalk... Managed to even eat dinner before that... Haha... And the donuts... Yummy... Kekeke...

And was just thinking back, why was it possible? just in the morn, i literally dragged myself out of bed and then i decide to believe that it'll be a great day, and it was really a great day! God is good!!! He turns things ard...

And during zm last nite, jeremy talked abt the 5 diff kinds of mindset... And I was so excited cos I could identify with the childish mindset... Like trying to siam responsibility? This is one area which I wanna improve on and God is speaking to me abt this at this pt of time... I was so excited... Cos it's like so in line lo... Wow!!!

So I decided i need to do something abt it. Everytime the siam-ing feeling comes, I got to tell myself - Satan get thee behind me!!! Yep yep... Not easy... but i know that God will not give me something which i cannot bear... So I will face it head on from now onwards... God, help me...

Even as I pray for increased capacity, for strength to go through this coming year... I really hope that I will be able to sustain all the things that need to be done. I know that at the end of this period of trials and tests, I'll emerge stronger... As I go through this process, I'll trust God more, my faith in God will increase, my relationship with the ppl supporting me through this time will become stronger and closer as well... I look forward to the result and for now... It's back to the process... Got to work le... Ciaoz...

Great Day ahead!!!

2007-09-20T09:07:00.000+08:00

That's what I hope it is... Actually so sleepy.. Hahaha... Just zonked out on the cab here... Zzzzzzzzzz......... Hahaha... I think I'm really tired le... Need a rest man... Last week worked til too late... This week havent recovered from that...

But hope that today will be a short day... Hmmm, but I'll reach home late... Haiz... The fatigue is going into my bones, a bit achy... Hahah... Dunno got this word or nt... Was working last nite when i reached home, did like less than an hour then started dozing off... Can imagine how tired i was huh? USusally at nite I can just work til 1am, 2am then go sleep. Last nite at 11+ i was dozing like sleeping le... Hahaha...

Then this morn really struggled to get out of bed, was praying that God will take away the fatigue and literally dragged myself out of bed... Heh... Managed to leave home ard 815... Then caught in bad jam... So zzzzzzzzzzz.... Hahaha...

But prayerfully i can finish wat i wanna do today... So sleepy... Hope God will restore my strength... Couldnt finish wat i supposed to do last nite, so need to go do now... Cant wait for my break to come... Need a rest badly... This weekend also siong, next week also... Faints... back to work for now...

For records...

2007-09-19T10:00:00.000+08:00

I went back to my older posts... Realised I started on the 2000pcs jigsaw on 16-Jul-07... It was completed last sun -- 16-Sep-07... 2 months exactly... Yep... So just wanna record this down... Wahahah... Anyway, this is my 100th post... Hahaha... I think i siao le, high... Too tired le... Start serious work le... Bye...

7 more days...

2007-09-19T09:07:00.001+08:00

I wonder wat i'll be doing then... probably here too... at client's place... i wanna eat the champagne cake... my fren recommended... so i wanna try... the one at swiss bake... hmmm... then was telling ken i wanna go omni theatre also... so long havent been there... Heh... dunno wat they screening now...
later i go check...

no mood to work... Haiz... my babysitter mgr replied!!! Yeah... So happy, hopefully she'll help me... If nt i jialat le... tired... need a break... it's coming soon... need to study...

Yep... here's the photo... We finished it... put in the last piece together... Heee... So happy... Then now it feels so weird, like there's nothing to do together... hmmm like normally, we'll watch tv and do the puzzle, then now nothing to do le... feels empty... Hahaha... Ok... Got to start work le... Think today will be a great day.. Going to meet ken later during lunch to get the BS book from him later... Then after work meeting yuhao for BS and then meet aunty to do stock take of the things in JW church... Gtg...

More things I want...

2007-09-18T14:28:00.001+08:00

I want a light that allows me to read books at nite... Cos I share room with my bro then he sleeps early... Then i usually read before I sleep... Story books, text books, bible... They're under my pillow... Heh, can go check, see what book I reading now...

I want earphones... Those can coil back one... The one my sis gave one side no sound le... I dun want those that cannot coil back one... I wanna put in my pencil case, so that I can use when I working... Heee....

Children's day... No plans yet... The kids also dunno... Hmmm... I think dunno leh, we still discussing... See how... How's 'my jigsaw' coming? or plan aborted? did u use my name???

Woah...

2007-09-18T10:27:00.000+08:00

Finally, can get to update... Yep, at client's place today, so can blog... Wahahaha... Hmmm... Oh ya, Adeline... She was sharing abt the show Evans Almighty... In one part of the show where God appeared to the wife of 'Evan'. He asked her when you pray, you ask God for patience, do you think he will give you patience? Or an opportunity to have patience? If you ask for family bonding, do you think God will give you unity in the family? Or a chance to have family bonding? So think twice... When you ask God for increased capacity... Be prepared to go through some tough times... This is so that your capacity will be increased!!! Yep... Just parts of the show and my thoughts... So be encouraged, even as you go through a time which is not so easy, not so comfortable... Know that this is temporary and it'll be over soon. And you're a conqueror as you've made it through...

You know, even as I start on my new role, learning the new things and how to manage my time better, i really thank God for His guidance and strength. I used to be very "siaming"... Like try to siam when arrows start flying... Or think of an escape route... Like to the extent where I'll go take MC... But I come to realise that this is not what I'm supposed to be doing... God has given me the opportunity as I pray for increased capacity... And I'm supposed to be exceling in the things which He has given to me to be done... So... I need to change my whole attitude... A conquering attitude... Everyday as I wake... I remind myself that this is one area I need to overcome... And the reason i need to stay one more year in this job is cos God wants to mould this area of my life... I know it... But it's tough... We're always looking for the easy way out... Try to siam jobs, assignments...

But on the other hand, God doesnt mean to have us to volunteer for everything... Cos we still dun have the ability and capacity to do them all... But do take on more responsibilities (as the Spirit leads)... Cos this is so that our capacity and faith in God increases... This is how... God gives you the opportunity to increase ur capacity, not increased capacity... Through a period of moulding process, your capacity is increased... Dunno if anyone understands what i saying... But hopefully some will... Hahaha...

Have a great week ahead!!! See ya soon...

1st celebration

2007-09-16T19:25:00.000+08:00

Just celebrated my bday today... Hahaha... Cos nursery celebrates once a month and so happened to be today... I got to know that got bday celeb from sally this morn... Then the gals all acting so funny today, passing the card ard to be signed, trying to nt let me know, but it's so obvious la... THen the more you try to hide? the more obvious it is lo... Hahahaha... It's like yue miao yue hei... But really thanks for the effort n the cup... It's so sweet...

So happy today... I finally finished the jigsaw... The 2000 pieces one... Finally... Cant rem when I started... Hahah... Think more than a month le... Was difficult man... Ken n I put in the last pc together... Heh... It was so exciting... Hahaha... But we broke it up into segments and put back into a box... Think not framing them up yet cos no space to put, at least in box easier to keep...

Then we thought abt our new house... Hahaha... It's not bought yet la... But we thought abt where to put the puzzles... Would need lots more of jigsaws to fill it up... And we guessed maybe not all disney ones will be good... I dunno, havent been checking things out in the jigsaw shops... So I dun mind some contributions... More undone jigsaws... Think can ask Ken to think abt wat jigsaws to get... Since he has been assigned the designer of the wall... Hahaha... I assigned... Wahahaha...

Ok... Hmmm.. Wat else I need... Nothing much at the moment... I so stressed now that I want more sleep... More rest but more money... Hahaha... I know that's impossible... I think the list a few blogs below still is the list of things i want... Plus this entry of more jigsaws... The other things??? Really cant think of any... Maybe really a plug in cut away guit? Then i can get the acoustic guit tt ken's using now? Instead of the classical one.... hahha... Just my dream... Hee...

I know there are many more celebrations to come... Looking forward to them, but got to finish up my work 1st.. Haiz... Dinner 1st la...

Will share abt what adel shared during prayer meet today, quite encouraging... Next time ba... But in case i forget, it's abt Evan Almighty show... The lesson learnt... And what I learnt too... Yeah... I wanna go mum mum now...

More than a week le...

2007-09-15T01:05:00.000+08:00

Ooops... Havent updated... Haiz, not my fault la... The office dun let us access blogs... So havent been reading blogs as well... This whole week I was back in office... Tiring wk man... Rushing my work like nobody's biz... But I survived another week... Capacity stretched by a little more... Quite a fruitful week la...

havent been eating well or sleeping well. Think need to work hard this weekend then can rest a bit. Been reaching home ard or after midnight... THink i reached home at 3plus last nite, managed to sleep 4 hrs plus before starting the day again... As I go through my day, I thank God for being with me, giving me the strength and grace to go through this.

I remember some time back when i was in a state of dilemma... Qing Yuan came to our cg n gave me a word... THat word has been sustaining me through all these times... And in the next one year... I know that I can do it. Although times are not going to be easy. But... God's grace is more than sufficient for me and He will not allow me to bear a load which I cannot take it. AS such... I know that I can make it...

Each day as I wake... I sigh... Haha... But at the end of the day, I will praise God, cos I know he has helped me to go through one more day... And after one year, I'll become stronger... Heh... I pray that I get new revelations to sustain me through the coming year... Quite fearful of the coming peak... Learning how to cope each day... Not easy, a challenging life... But it'll be a fulfilling coming year... Ken also not free, so good la... I wont feel bad nt keeping him company... I wonder what will happen after one year... But I figured... No point thinking abt it now... Hahaha...

I wonder what will happen on 26th... Think got to work leh... Dunnno Ken free or nt also.. Think he so busy til he wont have time to plan or go out with me... I think dun get my hopes up...

Food Hunt!!!

2007-09-07T21:28:00.000+08:00

So full... Just came back from dinner with the engagement team... Chong Hong treated us... Marche at vivocity... Very full, we ordered lots of food and shared... Nice time chatting... Didnt join them for drinks... Didnt wanna go... Heh...

Tml gt the food hunt... So exciting... Will be a facilitator but will be going ard with a team as well... Dunno which team or where though... But i know that it's going to be fun... At Ken's place now... He needa use the comp le, so long...

Announcement...

2007-09-03T10:44:00.000+08:00

I'll be on leave tml n wed... Cos the job got nothing to do le... So I'm free!!! But my dear not free... He everyday so busy... Me so sad... Sad...

Countdown... 23 days more...

2007-09-03T10:18:00.000+08:00

On sat, Yan asked me if I was excited that the day is coming... No, not my wedding day... My bday... Well, seriously, am not very excited la... Quite tired and nt in the celebration mood... 24th bday... Not really looking forward to it...

Thot of my wish list... Let's see...

1. A small bible to fit into my bag
2. A small water bottle - 300/400ml one, to fit into my bag
3. A small umbrella, the one ken's mom gave spoil le, shhhhhh, dun tell her... :p
4. A new hp casing for my 6230i (red preferred), but think not for sale in mkt le...
5. Clothes - Ed hardy top for svc wear and Biz clothes for work...
6. A wallet... Mine still usable but the the wallet open mouth le...
7. Perfume - Dun want white musk, oceanus...
8. A plug-in cut-in guit, as requested by Ken? Hahaha...

Dun want bags... i think i got a lot... hmmmm... i think that's abt all... i'll cont to think and then update here lo...

Oh ya, dun go and disturb ken to ask him wat i want k? he very busy, dun stress him le...

Happy Teachers' Day!!!

2007-08-31T13:24:00.000+08:00

To all my dear teachers, thank you for teaching me... I am who I am because of you! All the times and efforts and heartaches which you had spent for me. I really appreciate them... On the day of teachers' day eve, just wanna wish every teacher a happy teachers' day...

Just past by several schools on the way to NUS, saw that there are teachers' day celebrations going on... But I'm not involved, cos I'm out of school already... Heh... So do go ard thanking your teachers if you still keep in touch with them! And also to those ppl who have taught u things... Do thank them as well, be a thankful person, be appreciative, be a grateful person...

Imagine you are a teacher and ur student comes up to you and thank you for teaching them. The inspiration you have been to them... At that moment in time, everything which you done for them seems all worth it... Ya? Sometimes a little encouragement is all that a teacher needs... And it's not too difficult to do it rite? Show ur appreciation today!!! NOW!!! Dun wait! U'll forget...

So... Happy Teachers' Day!!! Enjoy ur weekend...

I love this song...

2007-08-30T20:32:00.000+08:00

Everytime i sing, I'll cry... This is so close, so close...
Can just connect with it...

God of my forever

GOD OF MY YOUTH I REMEMBER
YOUR CALL ON MY LIFE TOOK ME O'ER
YOUR LOVE HAS SEEN ME THROUGH ALL MY DAYS
I STAND HERE BY YOUR GRACE

ON THIS ALTAR I'VE WRITTEN MY LIFE
TELL OF THE STORY I HAVE WITH YOU
MY LORD I WANT THE WORLD TO KNOW

GOD OF MY FOREVER
AND FOREVER I'M WITH YOU
MY LIFE IS SAVED WITH A PRICE
YOUR SACRIFICE REDEEMED MY SOUL
GOD OF MY FOREVER
AND FOREVER I WILL SING
MY GREATEST HONOR WILL ALWAYS BE
TO SERVE MY LORD AND KING

GOD OF MY LIFE I SURRENDER
MY HEART FINDS ITS REST IN YOUR WORD
PRAISES WILL NOT BE ENOUGH TO SHOW
HOW MY LOVE FOR YOU HAS GROWN

NOTHING MATTERS WHEN YOU'RE HERE WITH ME
IN THE END JUST TO HEAR YOU SAY “WELL DONE”
BOWING BEFORE YOUR THRONE

FOREVER AND EVER
JESUS YOU ALONE IN GLORY REIGN
FOREVER AND EVER
WITH YOU I'LL WALK THIS NARROW WAY

Living a life guided by the Holy Spirit

2007-08-30T18:55:00.000+08:00

Was just reading the scriptures today... Gal 5... So encouraged by it... God gave us grace and liberty to live a freed-up life. He wants us to be able to enjoy ourselves, not bounded by laws --> legalism... But on the other hand, He doesnt want us to live a sinful life cos of the liberty --> antinonianism. Our lives should still be a consecrated life, a life which will bring Him glory and honour.

So many ppl struggle to lead a balanced life, a life which glorifies His name. Why? Cos they are not living a life which is guided by the Holy Spirit...

Gal 5:
16 So I say, let the Holy Spirit guide your lives. Then you won’t be doing what your sinful nature craves. 17 The sinful nature wants to do evil, which is just the opposite of what the Spirit wants. And the Spirit gives us desires that are the opposite of what the sinful nature desires. These two forces are constantly fighting each other, so you are not free to carry out your good intentions. 18 But when you are directed by the Spirit, you are not under obligation to the law of Moses.

When you live a life that's guided by the Holy Spirit, you will keep the law automatically as the Holy Spirit keeps the law. It'll not be a struggle, it's not difficult... If you just allow the Holy Spirit to guide you in all that you do! And this is not all!!!

Gal 5:
22 But the Holy Spirit produces this kind of fruit in our lives: love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, 23 gentleness, and self-control. There is no law against these things!

These are the fruits of the Holy Spirit, which I yearn for so earnestly. These are fruits which show that one is spiritually matured... Not that I want these fruits to show off but these are what makes good character... What we should be working towards in our lives! It doesnt end here...

Gal 5:25 Since we are living by the Spirit, let us follow the Spirit’s leading in every part of our lives.

As this chapter comes to an end, we ought to follow the Spirit's leading in all that we do... Make a decision today, that you will be obedient, that you will yield to what God is telling you, showing you and guiding you... Amen? :)

Rest???

2007-08-30T14:20:00.000+08:00

Hmmm.... Was given 2 rest days cos of the hard work which was put in... Then I got the news, got to submit planning to manager by 31st Aug, that's tml!!! For all my babies... Faints... Really faints... I felt like I just finished a battle... Worked til 6am and 5am then came back to office the next day at 1330 and 845? Then now can take a short break and the news comes...

Think i'll collapse if this goes on for the next few weeks... So yep, while my colleagues are enjoying their break, I got to clear out the things which are piling up... And I can see this continuing for the next whole month as I cont to be booked on the job which takes away my sleep... God, help me...

And on top of this, Ken's so busy too... We met at 9plus last nite for dinner at best, opp church, aft his tuition and aft my work... Then went back to koonz... He came to sch early to do his fyp... I met him to get his notes and went to attend the lecture on his behalf... Copied the notes, understand the lect... Then we went lunch and he went back to his lab... Later, i'll attend another lect... Then now doing my things while he does his fyp... Then he got tuition again later and i'll do my work... Is this considered rest?

Am a little sad... Looking at the work and things just cant seem to clear... like i just finished my budgetting, booking of staff... Then now the next thing is to do planning... THen the next thing is to start the interim, the fieldwork and then review, do the FS and the most irritating thing is that it's all running concurrently... There is more than one job on hand and everything seems to be piling up... Checking my email is so scary now, there'll be long lists of things to do for the various entities... From diff ppl and they are all waiting for u... So so so scary... I really wonder how I'll fare this year, sometimes feel like just bo chap... But I cant, cos even if i bo chap, it'll still be at the back of my head... I cant sleep well... And I'll get very very stressed up...

Need to learn new ways to cope with this man... trying year ahead... Wish I can just put everything now and go for a break... But... PLanning stuff due tml? Faints... LEngthen the hours, lengthen my time, lengthen the life of my batt as I work w/o power... Hahaha.... Bye....

I survived!!!

2007-08-26T23:28:00.001+08:00

Realised the previous post was a little long... Just copied and paste from an email, so no need to read if u're nt free... nothing of my thots added there... heh... wanted to create a test also... seems like a trend, but decided not to... too mind taxing to think of the questions... Hahaha... Anyway... Just wanted to share what happened in the past week... Wasnt the best week, wasnt the easiest week... But...

Yeah!!! I survived the week... Hahaha... Siong week, but at least I got to rest this weekend... Heh... Let's see... Hmmm... I shall go take my cab receipts... and see wat time i go hm everyday... Hmmmm.... Maybe not, too lazy to move... Heh... Hmmm, i think go take better, cant rem le... Hahaha....

Worked last sat too... then went for lillian's hse warming and then rested on Sun...

then on
mon - 20/8 - 2148-2215
tue - 21/8 - 0043-0111
wed - 22/8 - 0145-0206
thu - 23/8 - 0100-0123
fri - 24/8 - 0303-0317

That's the time on the cab fares for the past few days... Yep... and i reach home doesn't mean that i sleep straight aft that... there are some days which i cont working til morn... yep... on tues nite, i worked til 630 then slept til 1130 then worked then go office... thu also... i came back and did update for my nursery stuff til 3 then slept... So been working til late for the past week...

Then on tues, I broke down n cried during lunch... Was feelin so stressed and so tired... So haiz.... But God saw me thru the week la... Here I am, still alive...

Hahah... Weekend was a good break from all the work, not so relaxing but ok la, well rested... I slept almost 4 on sat morn, slept in til 1230 on sat then went to meet ken and then went his place... Then did jigsaw... Put in ard 10 pcs only... Well, better than nothing... Then went to his cousin house to fellowship... cos he came back for a while from the states, then flying off again tml... He studying his degree there, so we went to catch up with him and all the relatives met at his house, so i went also la...

Then wen home after that, reached home at 11 plus... Then slept, then woke up and went svc, then went to meet nursery ppl for high tea buffet cos for sally's belated bday... then after that went to bishan to pick up ken's bro's belated bday present... cos we ordered it last wk... I also went to get a present for sally... Yeah... Then went to kelvin's hse to wait for ken to come... then we went for dinner at botak jones' near his place then came home le... i didnt eat dinner cos was too full le... the high tea buffet was filling... And the cake was powerful... sinfully chocolate... Really sinful but nice man!!! Wahahaha...

Looking back... I've learnt to look at things on a lighter note, some things are not within my control... I'll do things up to the best of my capability... No matter wat injustice i may face, i know that my God sees all these things and He'll do something abt it... I'll cont to work hard and smart... Putting God 1st in all that I do... He will sustain me... The joy of the Lord is my strength... I have friends ard me who care abt me, who support me... i have a supportive fam... my mom will iron my clothes, my dad will come and fetch me if he is in the vicinty... i have a cg who loves the Lord and will not give more probs to the cgl and also his gf... Rite? Heh... I have a group of responsible and willing team ICs who make things happen... And I know that I have a God who is behind me, His grace is more than sufficient for me to go thru each day... He knows what i'm going thru and He has a greater plan for me. To understand greater truths; to increase my capacity thru all these things... Really blessed!!!

Was just on the way home on the cab on sat morn-3plus... Looking out of the cab window as it goes pass the west coast area and then on the AYE... The sky was a red, black sky, quite clear... There was clouds above water surfaces, like the sea and the Pandan reservoir... White clouds... The contrast... The serenity... The lights... The HDBs... God is an awesome God! Look at His creations... They are so amazing... He lets me rest in His presence... I felt so blessed that day... Although I was physically tired, but I felt that God was just beside me in the cab, telling me that He gives peace to all... That I could just trust Him and lean on Him for the coming week... He's always there for me... Nvr left me... Wow!!! :)

Even today during worship... The song... It really touches my heart when I sing it... Just to hear you say 'well done' this line is the line which really motivates me... I know that what i do everyday is not to please anyone... But just Him and Him alone... ANd I dun expect to be rewarded... I just waiting to hear that from Him... Only Him... It'll make all things worth it... A life for Him... :)

Men, Make God's Dreams for Your Life Come True

2007-08-23T22:48:00.001+08:00

It's natural to want to be and do something great, since God has wired you to pursue a significant life. Those dreams stirring in your soul can come true if you embrace God's plans with passion.

Here's how you can make God's dreams for your life come true:

Ask God to help you see clearly. Don't let your own agenda or other people's expectations cloud your vision of what God wants your life to be like. Instead, choose to let God decide what's best for you, since He – your Creator – knows you better than you know yourself. Realize that God's ultimate dream for you is to become more like Jesus. Understand that God wants to use your current reality (not the fantasy of how you wish your life would be) to move you toward His dreams for you. Expect Him to use your struggles to accomplish good purposes. Rather than running from reality, let God bring glory through it. Exchange your own limited vision for God's unlimited, much more powerful vision. Instead of fighting God's process of making His ultimate dream for you come true – transforming you more into Jesus' image – accept the discomfort, conflict, loss, and pain involved. Trust that going through anything God deems necessary is worth it, because He is accomplishing good purposes in your life that can't be accomplished any other way. Constantly stretch the borders of your growth by praying regularly for God to continue changing you. Surrender every area of your life to God and eagerly anticipate how He will help you grow as a result.

Pay attention to what you're leaking. Realize that your character qualities leak out into the lives of the people around you – for better or for worse. Strive to leak less sin and selfishness that stinks and leak more holiness instead. Know that God wants you to be visibly identified with Jesus in a way that brings Him glory, pouring out hope into the lives of people with whom you interact. Be faithful to God's call to represent Jesus, even when others reject the Gospel. Be available for God to use you in any situation, and depend on the Holy Spirit to help you live out your faith with integrity. Study Jesus' life to imitate how He interacts with people. Invite God to refine every part of your character, holding nothing back from His work in your life.

Be humble. Know that God has declared that you are important to Him, and He has approved your mission, so you're free to be humble. Understand that you have nothing to prove. Ask God to help you be content with yourself, to desire recognition only from Him, to trust Him with your station in life, to refrain from threatening others, to be at ease with the weak, to be easy for people to embrace, to not feel any need to get credit from others, and to refrain from competition with others. Strive for influence without ego. In conflict, choose reconciliation instead of retaliation. Pass up power for yourself in order to increase God's influence. Submit to God's plans versus presuming them. Freely notice others. Empty yourself instead of holding onto a sense of self-entitlement. Be willing to humbly obey God's purposes. Wait for God to honor your efforts in His time rather than trying to force results yourself. Be willing to exchange: comfort for discomfort, flattery for faithfulness, status for service, harshness for graciousness, titles for treasures in heaven, and safety for suffering. Don't forget how important God and other people are, and keep your sense of your own importance in perspective. Learn all you can from Jesus. Focus on Him more than on yourself. Reach out to others in service as God leads you, humbly sharing God's love.

Serve others. Instead of seeking to have others serve you, seek to serve them. Realize that power and prestige aren't what make you a truly great man; what distinguishes you is your willingness to serve. Remember that when Jesus came to Earth, he didn't choose to be served, but to serve. Ask God to help you reach out beyond your family and friends to strangers who are different from you and even make you uncomfortable. Don't place any borders around the scope of your service; be open to following God's leading anywhere. Every day, try to make decisions that help you serve others rather than just yourself.

Make sacrifices. Be willing to give up whatever you need to in order to become more like Jesus. Understand that if you're willing to sacrifice now for God, you'll experience the joy of your reward later. Expect that God will honor your faithfulness in His time and in His way. Know that every one of these sacrifices you make for God is an opportunity to bring Him glory: an attitude, a behavior, a response, a comfort, a right to strike back, a feeling, an impulse, a chance to control, a grab for power, a portion of your time, a pattern of your old life, a financial bonus, a freedom, a way of doing something, or a golden opportunity. Trust that God's glory is more important than anything you give up for Him.

Don't run from suffering. Recognize that suffering can build your character in powerful ways, and that God often uses the suffering you go through to accomplish good purposes in your life. When suffering comes your way, accept it and ask God to help you endure it for the cause of something greater than yourself. Pursue Christlikeness over comfort. Ask yourself honestly how much you're willing to endure for Jesus in your times of pain, or whether you tend to seek your own safety. Trust in God's ultimate control of all that He allows to happen to you, and know that through your suffering, you will grow as a person and become united to Jesus.

Discover and do God's will. Know that it's crucial to find out God's will and commit to following it when making decisions. Let God's unconditional love for you, give you the confidence you need to be free of worrying about other people's acceptance or approval. Ask God to give you the courage you need to pursue God's priorities for your life with great focus. Cooperate with God to fulfill His purposes in your life. Pray each day for the ability to do less of your own will and more of God's will for you.

Experience the joy of being God's child. Embrace the special connection you have to your heavenly Father as His beloved child. Be assured that, through Jesus, God has adopted you into His family and anointed your special relationship with Him. Regularly seek a special revelation from God concerning your life. Be authentic with Him, knowing that you can't hide anything from Him, and that He loves you completely, scabs and all. Share private conversations with God through prayer every day. Rather than seeking validation from other people, live to please God alone and don't worry about other people's opinions. Learn to trust your heavenly Father intuitively and implicitly.

Be compassionate. Understand that God wants you to be strong and secure in Him so the compassion of Jesus could flow freely through your life to those who need your touch. Acknowledge the reality of the situations around you and work with it instead of running away from it. Be willing to be undignified in order to meet the needs of others. Don't give into apathy when you encounter other people's pain. Instead, respond right away to urgent situations. Allow yourself to see, feel, and act like Jesus in the face of pain instead of dismissing needs. Ask God to help you become tender and fearless when confronted with pain.

Dig down deep. Don't settle for superficial relationships. Instead, learn how to discern people's deepest emotions and concerns, and respond to them. Ask the Holy Spirit to help you know what lies inside the heart of each person with whom you're relating – hurts, fears, insecurities, sin, mixed motives, lust, wounds, abandonment, shame, pride, loss, anger, etc. Ask people thoughtful, caring questions to help reveal the issues behind their thoughts, words, and behaviors. Learn how to recognize the differences between appearances and reality, public images and private struggles, anger and hurt, pride and fear, good and bad intentions, right and wrong agendas, and healthy and unhealthy spiritual patterns. Pray regularly for the ability to see yourself and other people more clearly.

Express God's grace. Know that while you may hate sin, Jesus calls you to love sinners – just as He does. Pray for the courage you need to affirm people apart from their sin. Remember that Jesus died for every person; ask Him to help you see each person you encounter as someone He loves and wants to help. Let your gratitude for how much grace God has given you motivate you to express grace to others, even when you disagree with their attitudes or behaviors. Ask God to help you overcome pride and engage other people without walls, giving grace to them as freely as you have received it yourself.

Embrace reality. Avoid fantasies that deceive you and accept reality as it is – not as you would like it to be. Be committed to the truth, even when it hurts. Invite Jesus to shine His light over the dark places in your life – morally, emotionally, relationally, and spiritually – and expose what you need to deal with so you can grow into the person He wants you to become. Let truth guide your actions. Speak the truth. Encourage others to face the truth. Accept responsibility and evaluate your own shortcomings. Seek constructive feedback from others and embrace consequences. Acknowledge and deal with negative emotions instead of swallowing them. Make the hard and better call in situations early. Grieve losses and hurts rather than hiding from them. Don't blame others to cover for your mistakes. Don't seek affirmation to compensate for insecurity. Speak up with others, to them, and for them when the Holy Spirit leads you to do so. Pray for the ability to seek life as it really is and to trust God for how it will be.

Fight evil. Pray for the courage and strength you need to fight spiritual battles. Remember that you can count on the Holy Spirit to help you overcome evil with good. Be filled with the Holy Spirit and memorize the truths of Scripture so you'll be prepared to quickly and effectively resist Satan's attempts to tempt, distract, or destroy you. Have the confidence that God will help you win every time to engage in battle. Realize your place as God's beloved child. Respect Satan's tactics and power to influence lives. Revere truth so you can spot twisted manipulations of it. Respond decisively when you encounter evil. Rely on the Holy Spirit for spiritual insight. Rest in grace. Make choices for good over evil every day, such as by forgiving someone who has hurt you instead of attacking him or her, saying no to unhealthy appetites rather than feeding them, and encouraging people instead of criticizing them.

Say "no" to temptation in order to say "yes" to God. Realize that your time here on Earth is just a temporary layover on your way to your final destination – heaven. Keep heaven in mind when you make decisions every day, doing your best to live in a way that pleases God and will give you no regrets when you meet Him face to face one day. Rely on the Holy Spirit's help to flee whatever temptation you encounter.

Finish well. Let your exceptional destiny drive you to continue to live faithfully until the end. Ask God to help you stay committed to serving Him in all aspects of your life. Know that discipline in your commitment to living out God's dream of Christlikeness will far outweigh the regret of getting to the end of your life and wishing you had. Ask God to remind you of your personal mission, help you be consistent with your spiritual disciplines, keep learning, manage your time well, and live to please God instead of other people.

Adapted from Dream: How to Act on Your Passion, Discover Your Plan & Achieve God's Purpose , copyright 2007 by Kenny Luck. Published by WaterBrook Press, a division of Random House, Inc., Colorado Springs, Co., www.waterbrookpress.com .
Kenny Luck is the Men's Pastor at Saddleback Church in Lake Forest, California . He is also the founder and president of Every Man Ministries, which helps churches worldwide develop and grow healthy men's communities. Kenny is an ECPA Platinum Award-winning author, who has written or coauthored 17 books. He is a graduate of UCLA, where he met his wife Chrissy. They have three children – Cara, Ryan and Jenna – and live in Trabuco Canyon , California . He plays in a men's soccer league, mountain bikes and loves flag football on Thanksgiving mornings.

I feel so bad...

2007-08-18T12:31:00.000+08:00

Saturday is usually the day when I spend time with my dear alone... At least in the morn... But got to work today... Sad... Quite stretched tis few weeks... This coming week especially... Need to finish 2 jobs at the same time... Booked on Job A so means that i'll leave client's abt 11pm then go home... rest a bit then start on Job B... Sleep at 2,3 am then come to work by 9 in the morn the next day and even on a sat, think got to work a full day today too...

But I guess we got to learn to be more independent... So difficult... We really grew up together... Now it's so hard... But he needs to study too... And I need to finish up my work... Haiz... Need to learn to strike a balance... We're learning as we grow... Learning nvr stops...

One thing I learnt is to be thankful... This is really a virute to have... Thanksgiving... Not only to God but for the things ard us, the ppl ard us... Learn to be more appreciative. Ppl will like to work for and with you... Dun believe? Try it out... Help somebody in their work and when they thank you for it, you feel that it's all worth it... In another case, one who has received help just leaves without saying thank you... See if you'll be as willing to help him again... Hahaha...

So just say Thank You... Just 2 syllabus... Is it that difficult??? Hmmmmm...

Stretched...

2007-08-18T10:13:00.000+08:00

Feeling so stretched now... Book on Job A and need to finish Job B as well... Next mon Job A need to announce the results, the manager for Job B wanna review the file this coming wed... Everyday working on Job A til 11 plus... Then go home and rest a while then start Job B so that I can meet the dateline...

Working now... On a sat morning... Woke up early... Depsite working til late last nite... Tired... My body is protesting le... Yawn... Can feel the lactic acid building up...

Nvm, let me go and eat macs Big Breakfast to replenish my energy...

So sweet...

2007-08-17T12:06:00.000+08:00

My dear has been so sweet... Been travelling down to meet me for lunch... So out of the way but cos I've been so busy lately... We got to steal time for each other...

Having lots of things to do for these few weeks... So stressed. 24 hours really not enough... Last nite while dear was sending me back home after dinner aft the zone meetin, i was doing work in the car back... Yes, typing on my laptop in the car.

Thank God I managed to finish that small task before I reached home last nite. One thing down... But got to work on weekend to finish up the work... So tired... My mind is so tired, so stressed. So many things to do and think how to manage my time that i dun really rest well at nite. Haiz... But thank God that I still managed to go for zone meeting last nite. It's really God's grace...

I know that God is sustaining me... It's not easy but I know that through these, my faith will increase, my walk with God will strengthen as I draw nearer to Him... As I lean totally on Him... This is the time where my strength really fail me... I struggled so much to get out of my warm cosy bed this morn... It was raining... Not just raining... It was pouring... I had to crucify my flesh... Hahaha... Back to work...

Word of God...

2007-08-11T14:28:00.000+08:00

Last weekend was FOP... I went for 2 nites... Fri and Sun... They gave a magazine and a daily bread booklet... I was just reading 2 of the messages which talk abt the word of God. I was just so inspired by the messages. It just reminded me how much we really need the Word of God in our lives to help us through each day. And we should meditate on the verses, the promises which the Father has given to us.

It is so sad to see Christians who do not know what the word says. How can one claim that he is a Christian if he dun even bother to read His word except during CGM and Svc. How can a person call himself a Christian when he cant even remember what the bible says? It saddens me when I see ppl not willing to memorise the word or seem to be in so much pain trying to memorise 1 or 2 verses that will be tested in by the scripture memory team...

Are we too privileged that we've taken things for granted? Need a verse, didnt bring bible out, just find a comp and search via the online bible. Why dun you stop for a second and think abt the ppl in China? Ppl in places where Bibles are such rare thing... A treasure... If you're ignorant abt this thing, you got to read!!! Read more books... Heavenly man, the story of allen yuan, iron man... These ppl they memorise the bible... Not forced, but out of a willing heart!

They memorise bibles so that they can pass on their bibles... Cos they already have the word inside them... They are selfless ppl, they want more ppl to know the word, to read the word, so they memorise it... Friends, do spend some time to really thank God that in this place where we live in, access to Bibles is so ready... And the next time you memorise a verse, do try to store it in ur long term memory... This will really help during the end times, in the days of the Great Tribulation... Now is the time to prepare and equip ourselves... :)

My Wish List Cont'

2007-08-04T23:57:00.000+08:00

Was walking ard in Suntec... Then saw water-bottle... Ya, I need a new water-bottle.. Quite open to any water bottle, but muz be small one, but not too small... Wahahaha... Think abt 400ml will be good... And muz be compact one... I wanna put into my snr looking bag... Whahahaa....

It's already August... So scary... This year seems to fly man... The workload also seem daunting... Sometimes feel like just siaming and act blur but I know this wont work... Hahaha... Just dreaming...

Just came back from movie with Shaun n Bruce... Disturbia... Ok show... Nice ending... Hahahah... Watched simpsons also... That show nicer... Hee...

Gtg, talking to Ken le...

Bday wishes...

2007-08-01T22:03:00.000+08:00

Hmmmm... What things I want?

Need a new hp cover... I like my phone, so wanna just change the cover, dun want pirated one hor.. But the nokia shop dun sell this model leh, the one i went la... great world one... So want a new hp cover, if can choose col, red would be good... Dark red, not bright red hor... Hahahah... So ma fan...

Then need perfume, the miracle I got from Kel n er finishing le... Dun really like 'happy' but ok la, still can use la... Havent been shopping ard, so also dunno wat scent I like... Not too fruity or too sweet. Too sweet very malay... Hahaha... Like miracle, but Ken says the scent too old le... As in out in the market for too long le, shld get new scent... Well...

Would want a lesportsac bag... Those cute one, not the flower kind one... But it's very ex and not worth the price la... So not willing to spurge on this one la... And I just bought a new bag... Heh... Ya, my snr looking bag.... Heh...

Oh ya... I know wat I want... A small bible so that I can put into my snr looking bag... cos the one i using now too small to put my current bible... So when I go cg on fri, I cant bring my snr looking handbag... So wanna get a small bible that can fit into my handbag... Heh...

Then need clothes and shoes and bags... This one is forever on the wish list one... Every ladies' wishlist... Cos there's never enough... Heh... Agree rite? I see a lot of ppl nodding... Wahahaaha...

I'll continue to think abt wat else I need... I need a house, a car (a driving licence 1st), a all-paid-for honeymoon and of course a wedding... Hahaha... Husband no need ur help, I got one good choice le... Wahahaha... I'll cont to brainstorm... You can help me too... Remind me of things I told u I want in the past... But maybe now no need le... Hahaha... Just post them up and we can start a little discussion la... Hahaha...

FOP coming up...

2007-08-01T21:47:00.000+08:00

This weekend, we'll be heading down to FOP at indoor on fri to sun, every evening at 730. Do come n join us if u're free... Delirious? and Don Moen will be leading the praise and worship... Pst Phil will be preaching in all the services!!! I just love him... He's so witty and wise. Love his words of wisdom... Never fail to challenge and encourage me!!! Have almost all his books also... Going to buy one more this weekend... Muz set reminder in my hp... See u there!!! :)

Too busy for a friend???

2007-08-01T21:23:00.000+08:00

One day a teacher asked her students to list the names of the other students in the room on two sheets of paper, leaving a space between each name.

Then she told them to think of the nicest thing they could say about each of their classmates and write it down.

It took the remainder of the class period to finish their assignment, and as the students left the room, each one handed in the papers.

That Saturday, the teacher wrote down the name of each student on a separate sheet of paper, and listed what everyone else had said about that
individual.

On Monday she gave each student his or her list. Before long, the entire class was smiling. "Really?" she heard whispered. "I never knew that I meant anything to anyone!" and, "I didn't know others liked me so much," were most of the comments.

No one ever mentioned those papers in class again. She never knew if they discussed them after class or with their parents, but it didn't matter. The exercise had accomplished its purpose. The students were happy with themselves and one another. That group of students moved on.

Several years later, one of the students was killed in VietNam and his teacher attended the funeral of that special student. She had never seen a serviceman in a military coffin before. He looked so handsome, so mature.

The church was packed with his friends. One by one those who loved him took a last walk by the coffin. The teacher was the last one to bless the coffin.

As she stood there, one of the soldiers who acted as pallbearer came up to her. "Were you Mark's math teacher?" he asked. She nodded: "yes." Then he said: "Mark talked about you a lot."

After the funeral, most of Mark's former classmates went together to a luncheon. Mark's mother and father were there, obviously waiting to speak with his teacher.

"We want to show you something," his father said, taking a wallet out of his pocket "They found this on Mark when he was killed. We thought you might recognize it."

Opening the billfold, he carefully removed two worn pieces of notebook paper that had obviously been taped, folded and refolded many times. The teacher knew without looking that the papers were the ones on which she had listed all the good things each of Mark's classmates had said about him.

"Thank you so much for doing that," Mark's mother said. "As you can see, Mark treasured it."

All of Mark's former classmates started to gather around. Charlie smiled rather sheepishly and said, "I still have my list. It's in the top drawer of my desk at home."

Chuck's wife said, "Chuck asked me to put his in our wedding album."

"I have mine too," Marilyn said. "It's in my diary"

Then Vicki, another classmate, reached into her pocketbook, took out her wallet and showed her worn and frazzled list to the group. "I carry this with me at all times," Vicki said and without batting an eyelash, she continued: "I think we all saved our lists"

That's when the teacher finally sat down and cried. She cried for Mark and for all his friends who would never see him again.

The density of people in society is so thick that we forget that life will end one day. And we don't know when that one day will be.

So please, tell the people you love and care for, that they are special and important. Tell them, before it is too late.

And One Way To Accomplish This Is: Forward this message on. If you do not send it, you will have, once again passed up the wonderful opportunity to do something nice and beautiful.

If you've received this, it is because someone cares for you and it means there is probably at least someone for whom you care.

If you're "too busy" to take those few minutes right now to forward this message on, would this be the VERY first time you didn't do that little thing that would make a difference in your relationships?

The more people that you send this to, the better you'll be at reaching out to those you care about.

Remember, you reap what you sow. What you put into the lives of others comes back into your own.

May Your Day Be As special as You are special to me...!!!

Love you all....

Received this from Aunty Shirley... Remember that you're special to the ppl ard you... If you wanna me do a list for me, just come to me ya? :) I wont be too busy for a friend... But just give me some time kk?

Auditors no life?

2007-07-29T01:59:00.000+08:00

Well, to certain extent, this is true, cos by the time we leave client's place, most shops would have closed... Especially for jobs with tight datelines... And on a beautiful fri nite and sat nite, I'm here typing away... Not so bored to on my laptop to blog.. I was working... Clearing my work, after fri cg n sat's svc (n fellowship)... Working hard so that I can finish up my work and go on leave on wed... Wahahaha...

Anyway, back to the topic... Auditors have no life? Hmmm... But we have long breaks if we want... Or rather if we know how to plan... Can go travelling... Cos we got the money... Usually work late, no time to spend... Hahaha....

And that's why we tend to play very hard when there's a chance to... My friend sent me this.. Nt to laugh at ppl or wat... But just to illustrate my pt that when auditors play, we play hard too... Enjoy the clip...

http://fanyunpeng.v.hexun.com/D232035.html

Being an influencer???

2007-07-28T04:35:00.000+08:00

How can one be an influencer? By being rich? Well, the bible says the no one listens to a poor man... So ya, to a certain extent do rich man influence a city. They can build schools, hospitals, set up a foundation, etc...

But how else can ppl like you and I be an influencer? Yes, working hard to getting our 1st million... Well, being diligent is good.. We ought to have a spirit of excellence in everything that we do... But this alone will not make us an influencer. Hmmm... So wat are the ingredients to being an influencer?

I dun have the answer... But i guess, being efficient and producing excellent work do make ppl look at you differently? Like look up to you and desire to be like you? So in this way, you become an influencer.

Take ownership of the situtation... Be a leader... Especially in group work... How can you decide on things, like set the time and venue, true that everyone has a say but usually the leader's decision will finalise things... Be more authoritative at times... But too demanding though... Be firm yet understanding. Be caring yet focused... Hmmm...

What else? You need to be a good communicator... Not talking abt making a good presentation, but being a good friend. Someone who's there for the others, to support them, to care for them, to provide a listening ear. This is winning ppl over by compassion... By building up the relationship 1st. This kind of friends usually last longer, or at least you'll have more memories abt these ppl...

I pray that even as you read this, think of ways u can be an influencer over your friends... U'll be the leader... And u'll lead them to Christ one day... Let our light so shine that men shall see that God is in us and with us... Amen? :)

Recovered...

2007-07-28T04:23:00.000+08:00

Yep, was sick yesterday, or should I say the day before... On thurs la... Vomitted like 4 times? til the yellowish liquids came out? Twice in fact... Managed to drag myself out to see doc at jurong east before going lunch at clementi... think took only 3 mouths of porridge... That porridge very nice one, but somehow just no appetite that day... The smell of the food makes me feel real sick... I almost wanted to puke on Ken's food... Cos of the strong smell... Hahahaha... Thank God I didnt...

Went to work today and had diarrhoea twice... Then kept burping also... Thank God didnt fart... Hahaha... But think i've recovered le... But still dun wanna over-exert my stomach.. So not going for dim sum...

Stayed up to do work... Just finished abt an hour ago then started to read blogs... Think havent read for some time le...

Oh ya... The puzzle... Hmmmm... The grass and the animals all done le... Ken finished up the last bit... Now really left only the sky... We still wondering how to start... Got short cut or not... Sometimes I look at it, i feel like saying to the puzzle, move to ur positions! Hahaha... Ya, i think i watched too much harry potter le... Or too much faith le? Heh...

But think tml i'll go out... Need a haircut badly... And dear supposed to make an appt, i think he forgot le... Haiz...

Bonus n pay came in le... just aft midnight i think. dunno how much exactly cos the balance is updated but the transaction is not. Not as much as i expected... Haiz... Guess cos of CPF... But think my CPF can pay for deposit for flat le... Eh... I think la... Hmmm... How much deposit for flat costs huh? Hahahaha... Scarly not enough... then i thot enough...haiz... Muz go find out... recently like not much new flats out for balloting... not as if i getting married next yr or wat la, but i wanna see wat things to look out for, etc...

been feeling quite stressed at work... Such that i'll fell sick very easily... Been sick for 2 days in 2 weeks le... Haiyo... Was so sick on thurs that i really couldnt do any work... The medicine made me so drowsy... wa, now already 433.. hmmmm... think i shld go sleep le... tml dunno wat i going to do yet...

And to mr koh... I didnt mean to pang seh u on thurs one... I was really very sick... running a temp, and so very drowsy after the medication... i really wanted to be there... Haiz... i think next time i jio u all out again la... at most i treat lo... but only if things work out well... Wahahahaha.... hmmmm....

Names... of Pooh family...

2007-07-23T15:15:00.000+08:00

Do you know the character nameS?

The big kangaroo is kanga
the small one is roo...
Then Pooh bear, piglet, tigger, ee-aw n rabit?

correct? does anyone know???

A sleepy day...

2007-07-23T10:21:00.000+08:00

The weather is so good to sleep in.. Oh man... I was praying and praying this morning when i woke up... Asking God to give me strength to go through this day and take over all the tiredness... Am at client's place le... Still very sleepy... Haiz...

Spent the weekend doing jigsaw... Think this is really a good way to save money... Ha... Muz buy bigger puzzles which will take longer time to do... Then I'll stay home and do the puzzle, then wont go out, wont shop or eat expensive food... Hahaha... Other than the investment put in 1st when you buy the puzzle, not much more is needed... Then need to have a board, a big board. So that you can put everything on it. So we are still doing that moonlight party puzzle... 2000 pieces really a bit siong... Hahahha... Think this will be the last time we doing a 2000 piece one... Cos it's really siong.. Haaha...

An update of the progress... We finished the moon and all the animals... We're doing the grass patch now, think got 70% of the grass done le... Think another hour can finish that le... Then the siong-est part left... The sky... Seems all the same... Wahahaha... Anybody bored? Think we'll go by the shapes to do... Hmmm.... Think got abt 300 pieces to try lo...

Ken was asking... Is this an enjoyment or is this a torture? Hahahaha... But I guess, this is something which we can do together... Spend time laughing and also encouraging one another... I recommend doing jigsaw to pass time man!!! Wahahaha... Anybody keen to help out with the sky??? Hmmmm.... I doubt anyone will leave a comment, all will act blur, nvr see this post... Let's wait n see...

Rest???

2007-07-17T21:23:00.000+08:00

Hmmm... Wanted to rest... Then after I dismantled the black n white n colour mickey jigsaw and packed it into the box, Ken suggested doing the other jigsaw that we bought last year in taiwan... The 2000 one... Winnie the pooh, moonlight party... It turned out to be much more siong than what we expected...

Yep... This is the picture... We only finished the frame, less one piece... Think miss out one piece when sorting the pieces... Then we started with the coloured areas... Still not completed... We only finished the main outline of ee-aw, piglet, bunny, small kangaroo and the big one also partially done... Ken seems a little too sian diao at the progress... But I guess it's challenging and more fun... I mean 950 pieces is so fast and no kick le... This one is more challenging and will be more fulfilling when it's done... Yeah!!! Hope Ken will feel this way too... Dear, we can finish it together one!!! Let's work together, dun give up kk? Then we can frame them up together... :)

Yep... then after Ken went for leaders' meeting, I came home... And ate dinner and then worked... Til 9... Then break for serial... Hahaha... Will finish up the last section in a while... Think can sleep early... Hee... Tml got to go back to work le... Yep yep... Throat much better le...

Sick...

2007-07-17T10:17:00.000+08:00

Haiz... On MC again... Think I caught a cold... Been sneezing for days le... Started to feel feverish last nite though much better le today but decided not to go to work... Just took my medication...

I had throat inflammation... My tonsils are swollen... I think since last tues nite... Then I got phlegm, bet the back of my nose n my throat... That's veru irritating...

The doc was like "do you have running nose or blocked nose?"
Erm, not running nor blocked, just lots of phlegm at the back of my nose and throat, that's very irritating...
He then gave me a weird look and "ok..."
Then he struck out the medicine he had written and wrote 2 other medicine down...

I have not taken these medicine b4 but i guess it means that my symptoms are diff from the ones I used to have... Whahahaha... Yep... So am at Ken's place... Nope am not resting... Need to rush work... Need to submit by thurs... Haiz... So I still need to work, but maybe at a slower pace... Hope to nap later...

Fruitful weekend...

2007-07-16T09:33:00.000+08:00

I had long weekend the week that just passed... On friday, Ken n I went to get the prizes for cg outreach on sat... Then we wrapped them up... Then we took an afternoon nap and then went out to IMM to get jeans... Dear dear also bought me the jigsaw I always wanted to get... Then we went to redhill for dinner with Kgoon, Ruix n Meng... Then we drove ard n finally went to Timbre...

On sat we set off early to Ubin and God was good... It rained only after we returned to mainland... We headed to Ken's hse after that to start on the jigsaw... I went home at 1230am... This was the progress after day 1...

On Sun, went to church early to give Tsoon Liang BS... Then svc and BS quiz n Meeting with Aunty n then Ken... Headed to PS for lunch... I think this pic is the one with the most ppl le...

Then went to Ken's place to finish up the jigsaw... Finally finished at 2300!!! Spent a total of 10 hours in all... Yeah!!!

Yep... So that was my weekend... Now at client's place le... Got to start work le... Update again soon... :) Have a great week ahead too!!!

Oh ya... WELCOME BACK, ISAAC!!! :) I doubt he'll see this also... He dun read my blog one... Wahahahah....

On leave again...

2007-07-13T00:14:00.000+08:00

Hahaha... On leave on fri... Long weekend... Hmm... not really, got cg outreach on sat.. yep... Jus read some blogs... Havent been reading cos was in training in office and they bar blogspot sites, and all other blog sites... So yep, I havent disappeared from earth, just no access to blogs la... But I've been quite noisy... Sending out sms to practically the whole cg almost every day... Think my sms for this month sure exceed like siao.. And some ppl just dun reply sms... Haiz... Dunno is nvr see or no time to reply or dunno wat to reply... Hmmm... How come I not reaping wat i sowed? I'm so reachable... I return calls!!! And smses... Hmmmm...

Been thinking quite a lot these few weeks... So much things happening... Muz really pray... Pray n pray..

So tml we'll meet to break fast together... Yeah... Call me k? :) Let's believe for more friends!!! Wat u waitin for??? Go invite!!! I've asked my colleaguessssssssss le... Waiting for reply... By tml... Yeah... See ya soon!!! Cont praying... If u run out of things to pray, call me... :)

Photos

2007-07-09T21:23:00.000+08:00

Wanted to type this earlier but dear was hogging his comp... Hahaha.... Here's the link to the photos... It'll show wat I've been doing, or rather the ppl I've been with these few weeks... Yep yep... I think photos speaks louder than words.. Hmmm... Yeah... But didnt post everything up la, cos too many le, and some were candid shots la... Hee... Muz see as slideshow k? Cos i put in captions le... Enjoy!

http://picasaweb.google.com/kennethteo100298/PhotosTakenWithQinSCamera

Ok... One last test... Jelly Beans!!! Hee...

2007-07-04T20:53:00.001+08:00

You Are a Peach Jelly Bean

You have a distinct style that you don't really have to work for. You're genuinely quirky, and people love your understated charm.

What Flavor Jelly Bean Are You?

I think this one not accurate one lo... One question only... Hahahaha... Anyway, I think Ken recovered le... These few days he has been cooping himself at home and recuperating... So now I think he well le... The last time I met him was on Mon and he looked so sick... Now he can walk ard n talk n watch tv, surf net... Yep... So thanks for all your prayers... :)

I did more...

2007-07-04T20:45:00.000+08:00

Hee... This one looked interesting...

You Are the Index Finger

You are ambitious, driven, and capable.
You aren't afraid to take responsibility for your actions - or place the blame on whoever deserves it.
You are honest, free thinking, and objective. You see things in your own way - and you aren't afraid to let everyone know about it.

You get along well with: The Thumb

Stay away from: The Ring Finger

What Finger Are You?

A definite night person!!! Wahahahaha...

You Are a Night Person

For you, there's nothing worse than having to get up and moving early.
In fact, you probably don't hit your peak until well after the sun has set.
So if your struggling to make it on a normal schedule, realize it's not your fault.
You just weren't meant to do anything during the day!

Are You a Morning Person or Night Person?

I think this one not that accurate lo... Ask only one question... But nevertheless, here it is...

Libra - Your Love Profile

Your positive traits:

You are open minded enough to date outside your typical "type" ... successfully!
You are diplomatic - and likely to end a fight instead of dragging things out.
You are easily loyal and faithful, but only for the right person.

Your negative traits:

You're a bit gullible, and partners take advantage of you. You still may not know it.
You find it difficult to decide where to go to dinner, what movie to watch, who to date...
You have to be in a relationship, or else you just don't feel like yourself.

Your ideal partner:

A smooth talker who enjoys socializing as much as you to.
Someone classy and cultured who knows which wine to order with dinner.
Is beautiful to you - although not necessarily attractive in the traditional sense.

Your dating style:

Romantic. If your date comes bearing flowers, wine, and poetry... well, your heart soars.

Your seduction style:

Giving. Your lover's pleasure is as important as your own.
Soft and sensual - you don't like anything to be rough.
Extravagant ... your fantasy involves staying at a five star hotel with your love.

Tips for the future:

Don't be so quick to compromise in relationships - and you'll get taken advantage of yes.
Try being single for a while. Seems impossible, but you'll learn so much about yourself from doing so.
Make some decisions about your romantic life, right now. You'll be happy that you did.

Best color to attract mate: Green

Best day for a date: Wednesday

What's Your Love Profile?

Uplifted from Meng's blog...

2007-07-04T20:33:00.000+08:00

You Are An ESFJ

The Caregiver
You are sympathetic and caring, putting friends and family first.A creature of habit, you prefer routines and have trouble with change.You love being in groups - whether you're helping people or working on a project.You are good at listening, laughing, and bringing out the best in people.
In love, you value harmony and mutual understanding.You will apologize or give someone the benefit of the doubt, if it means getting over a fight sooner.
At work, you are good at building relationships and connecting with people.You would make a great nurse, social worker, or teacher. How you see yourself: Organized, dependable, co-operative
When other people don't get you, they see you as: Opinionated, critical, and know-it-all

What's Your Personality Type?

Cappuccino as well!!! Hee...

You Are a Cappuccino

You're fun, outgoing, and you love to try anything new.However, you tend to have strong opinions on what you like.You are a total girly girly at heart - and prefer your coffee with good conversation.You're the type that seems complex to outsiders, but in reality, you are easy to please

What Kind of Coffee Girl Are You?

In training....

2007-07-03T22:34:00.001+08:00

These 2 weeks I'll be in office having training... In office, they blocked blogspot and all other blogs n msn n whatever you can think of... So only emails... So havent been able to blog... So yep... Just got promoted... But dunno how much is the pay increment cos the pay only comes at month end? But I'll be saving up the increase... Planning to go Israel next yr... With Ken n the church... Heh... His grad trip also... And I've been wanting to go this Holy Land... So whoever is reading this blog... Let's all save up together n go, ok? Hee....

Yep.... Ken has been sick... Quite sick... Been so long since he fell sick then now so jialat one... Getting worried for him... I think we going to have some breakthroughs comin real soon man... Wahahaha.... So exciting!!!

Work is starting to pick up le... I can feel it coming... Off-peak seems to have just started but it feels like peak is going to start... Well well... I guess it's only for ppl who have June year end jobs huh? But I like the team... So I hope that I can do well... Talking abt cultural mandate man... It's like gearing myself for it... All the preaching which Pst has shared... Wow... I think my coming year will be a really really stretching time le... BUT... God's grace is more than sufficient for me... God will help me to be exceedingly, abundantly, above what I ever can ask or imagine... Best snr man... Hahahaha.... If I can see it, I can have it... Amen!!!

Having more responsibilities at nursery now... Hmmm, actually not really... But more of training up more leaders...

Learning tons of things in training now... So much info... I pray that I can remember them all so that I can do them all rite the 1st time round man... God, you got to help me... And also wake up early everyday, so that i wont be late for class... No more cabs... So ex!!!

My library...

2007-07-03T22:06:00.000+08:00

I have a library of Christian literature... Hahaha... Not a lot la... But some... And I've loaned out some of these books... And I was just talking to a few ppl abt it... There seems to be no news from the borrowers of MY books... It's like a loan given and no news abt its collectibility...

Come on la... Can take some initiative or not? Think abt why I loan out books? So that you guys can benefit from these good books, get encouraged by them without having to spend your own money rite? And not hoard the books lo... Think abt it... You go library lend books... 3 wks muz return... If u dun return, they wont send reminder to you lo... They just start calculating the fine.... And then bar you from borrowing again unless you pay the fine... Right? Then if you wanna borrow for a longer period, you take the book back to the library n renew it lo... Rite? It's ur reponsibility to return the book, not the lib to come to you for the book!!! And if the book not to ur liking, u dun just keep it in ur hse rite? you return it... if it's so good tt you wan it for urself, then go buy it la... dun keep the book, it'll just accumulate fine and you wont be able to borrow another book le...

So similarly la... I dun mind lending books out... Dun mind you guys taking ur time to read and meditate on the book, but do assure me that the book is still with you and that you're still using it... If not, then lend others, pass it ard... BUT... I need to know where it goes... COS IT"S MY BOOK LO... Yep... No angry at anyone or wat... But just so frustrating, cos Ken said b4... It's the principle... Like borrowing money, always re-assure the lender that you remember the debt and you're working towards to returning it to him... It's abt responsibility la...

If i borrow anything, i make sure i return it asap... Like lib books, i'll read them 1st cos there's a due date... Hmmmm, even no due date, I'll return asap... There's a chinese saying

you3 jie4 you3 huan2
zai4 jie4 bu4 nan2

And I'll add on...

you3 jie4 mei2 huan2
zai4 jie4 bu4 neng2

Hahaha... I stress, this is not targetted at anyone... But if you fall into the above category, pls repent and be quick to change... Hahahahaha... I hope to see my books moving ard, benefitting more ppl... Hee....

End of leave...

2007-06-29T17:24:00.000+08:00

My leave has somewhat come to an end... Today's fri... Wanted to catch a show but it's no longer showing le... Haiz... Then Ken had a bad stomachache today so I stayed home to take care of him... Muz be eat too much, too fast, too much chilli... But he also not sure why he feels this way... Anyway, we should be leaving home soon... Got pm in place of cgm tonight back at xing's place....

Next mon will be back to work... Got lots of things to do le after that... time to gear up, gather my feelings n nua-ness n get back to the working mood. the chiong ah mood... i think i'll endure one more peak... i hope i can survive... The word which Qingyuan gave was a great encouragement... God's grace is with me. I know that God is more than able to bring me thru another peak... But it's just my body n mind tellin me NO.... Cos it's tough.... Heh... Comfort zone huh? Ya lo... I should be able to do just fine, with my colleagues with me... Hee... Rite? I need to convince myself that I love my work... Then I'll be just fine... Hmmm.... I need to see a greater picture... God help me and guide me...

i got my 1st 'baby'... just received the email from my rmt staff last nite... Looking forward to this job, hopefully i'll handle it just fine... :) Reporting not very tied, 6 mths... So tink i can DO IT!!! Together with God... Yeah!!!

Prawning...

2007-06-27T23:59:00.000+08:00

Did something crazy last nite... Ken and I went prawning at abt 1 am last nite... Heh... Went to the one at jurong bird park... We stayed there til almost 5 before going home. The catch wasnt fantastic. Only caught 4 in the 4 hours. Then the uncle there also caught, then gave them to us, Ken took 3... Adding the total count to 7... On the way down, we were still saying maybe can catch 20... Haiz... Not even 10... So sad... Then we reached home n slept n slept. Ppl sleep at nite, we sleep in the day... Hahaha...

Then woke up n did some nursery stuff before going down to NUS to print them out. Just finished sorting them out. Am all ready and geared up for the packing on Sun... Expo Hall 8 here we come!!! Anyway, after that we went to meet Yan and then went to AV for dinner. I ate chicken cutlet. Ken ate fish soup with rice and Yan ate chicken rice... The western was nice, the fish was thick, quite nice, but thought the fishy taste was quite strong... Heh... We also took fruit juice. Totally regretted ordering from that store, sucky... Next time muz go back our usual store. The one nearer rong guang one... We thot just give this uncle a chance, but haiz... This store is same row as rong guang but on the other side... Muz order from the corner store of the guang rong section, the middle of the whole row... Hmmm... Next time u wanna go ask me la, like that very hard to describe... Then went down riverwalk for BS before coming back home... So that ends my Wed...

Time is ticking so fast... Mid week le!!! But thank God, most of the things I wanted to do are done. Yeah!!! Ok, tml I going church nursery to help out... Then meeting some ppl up to watch Transformers... Then fri.... Wat should I do on fri??? I will be meeting Weilie for BS before cgm... Then sat... Also havent plan yet, still free. Then Sun is a busy day, got svc then packing to be done. Then Mon going to start training le... So yea, I'll be back in office for 2 weeks... Can meet me for Lunch... Jio me hor... Muz tell me earlier then can arrange my schedule. Like mon meet A, tue meet B... Hee... I popular mah... Wahahahaha... Scarely end up only me n siewling only... Hmmm.....

Ok I think i should go sleep le... Tml need to wake up early... Wat should I do on fri n sat??? Hmmm... Think tml then think la. No hurry... Heee....

26 Jun 07 (Tue)

2007-06-26T22:15:00.000+08:00

Today started with a movie at Lido... Caught hot fuzz with isaac n yuanxing... Think they're the only 2 who not having sch or work and are free today??? The show abt 2 hours... Abt a policeman or should i say police officer? being postedto Stanford... I not sure why, missed that part cos of the 2 guys who were late la... Hahahaha... We just burst out laughing during parts of the show... Cos it's funny, and there were not a lot of ppl inside, only 5... So we form the majority.. Heh... Muz enjoy myself ma... I paid for it... Yep... Then we met laimeng for lunch at far east... Ate chicken rice... Heh... So ex... Hahahha... More ex than fast food lo... Yuanxing la... Dun wanna eat fast food... Heh... Then we ate ice-cream - Turkish one... Then bubble tea... Went to book shop - Borders to look at books... Then went Orchard Lib... I borrowed a book - talking abt stories of adoption of a child... From the different perspectives, the adopted child, the one who send their children for adoption, the 3rd party pt of views, all true stories... Quite touching...

then went hereen to look at clothes b4 heading back jurong to meet ken and then pei him back to ymca then took bus home then ate dinner then bathed and then here i am... Watched tv also... Yep, so today is somewhat coming to an end... Quite tired le... Heh... But still awake... Hoping can go prawning later... Ken said wanna go last nite then change of plan... Hmmm... I wanna go leh... Heee... I wanna learn lots of things this year. A sudden surge of urge to pick up lots of things. I realised that I've been placed in a position which makes it very easy for me to learn certain things but I've been stubborn, act blur, dun wanna go learn them cos ppl ard me already know how to do it... So there's no need for me to know it also... But God spoke to me to be an 'able' person... To have the skills n abilities... So I got out of my comfort and conquering my fears for this year... So I've started to acquire these skills, hope to be able to get them soon, maybe realistically by end of next year... Heh... Dear, you got to help me k? Remind me, encourage me, spur me on... Heee... And we got to do one more thing together... your 9 and my 7... Heh... So we do together kk???

One week leave officially starts today...

2007-06-25T21:49:00.001+08:00

Yep... Was on leave since last fri but it was busy the whole day cos of ken la... doing the bs update... but the dinner was nice... Went Blooie's bar n grill at science park 2. Price was ok, slightly on the higher end for western food. But there was a man singing blues n jazz music, so not bad la...

then sat was busy... Woke up, went for holy mat then went to buy presents, svc then bday party... then sun serve and then went out with Ken til nite... Oh ya... then i reached home to find a cockroach on my table!!! I couldnt scream cos it was like 1am? And i cant wake my mom nor my bro up cos they gt work n sch today... So I used my small dustbin n tried to cover it but it ran!!! haiz... I wanted to sleep le, but my table was next to my bed... Then i wanted to spray insecticide n sleep in the living room but my bro was already asleep in the room... i chased it away... (It ran to under my table) and then i quickly went to shower, to make sure i'm clean n tried to make myself tired so that i'll sleep... Hahaha... It worked... Hope that later i go back it's not there le...

Anyway, today feels like the official start of my leave. Woke up at 9 plus then came over to ken's place to watch tv before going to suki sakura at clementi for buffet lunch... International buffet... $20/pax... The food was edible (for some) but the spread was there la.. Got cooked food, raw food, pizzas, dim sums, sushi, teppanyaki, ice-creams, cakes, desserts... Overall, the food was so so la, some not very nice, but we didnt expect much cos it's only $20... Quite cheap for this kind of spread... The ice-cream - nata de coco is nice.... the cake was not cold enough... the cooked food was not bad, as in edible. satay was nice too... But i didnt like their seafood... on the whole, we ate til we were very full... so $20 was lunch n dinner so really worth it la, in this sense... But we figured that we probably wont go back again cos the food was so so only... nothing which 'pulls' us back...

tml going movie with some guys... Hahaha... Think ken nt one of them... Wahahaha... Then wed... Hmmm.... maybe go NUS get some work done... then maybe bs at nite... Then thurs going church nursery to play with the kids... Then at nite go watch movie... fri nite got cg... week gone!!! Then back to office for 2 weeks of training le... Then will be at haw par villa area for the next 2.5 months... Til end of Sep... Hmmm... Muz rest, mus rest... Bye.... Go rest le...

Amazing Connie Talbot

2007-06-21T10:04:00.000+08:00

She's only 6 years old and she's so sweet n bold!!!
Everyone just loves her...
Even Simon Cowell has praises for her!!! Every performance!!!

Auditions:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=En0A8KGMgq8
Semi-finals:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dtF8YjVwd1U
Finals:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pYVXN7gk5W0

21-June-07

2007-06-21T08:51:00.001+08:00

Wow!!! We're entering the 2nd half of the year soon. Time to review my goals and check if I'm on track... Hmmmm.... Ok... Somewhere there.. But this year is a fear conquering year for me... We'll see what fears I've conquered at the end of the year...

Today going to pull out of this job, need to bring all the barang barang back to office... I think 3 bags of papers... Then my bag n my laptop bag... And they're not light lo... Superwoman!!! LoL

Oh ya, went for BS last nite...

A disciple is a thoroughly trained worker with a great attitude.

We need to constantly hear from God, especially in the morning. Like Jesus, He seek the face of God b4 He went out to minister to the ppl, in allwisdom, all power... So similarly, to excel n constantly do the right things, we need to seek God 1st every morning and ask the Holy Spirit to guide us in all that we do and say... :)

Ok, back to work le, need to finish up all the stuff b4 the day ends...

The Five Love Languages

2007-06-20T09:33:00.000+08:00

Took this test from Yun's blog...

The Five Love Languages

My primary love language is probably
Physical Touch
with a secondary love language being
Quality Time.

Complete set of results

Physical Touch:		10
Quality Time:		9
Acts of Service:		4
Words of Affirmation:		4
Receiving Gifts:		3

Information

Unhappiness in relationships, according to Dr. Gary Chapman, is often due to the fact that we speak different love languages. Sometimes we don't understand our partner's requirements, or even our own. We all have a "love tank" that needs to be filled in order for us to express love to others, but there are different means by which our tank can be filled, and there are different ways that we can express love to others.

Take the quiz ==> http://www.youthnetsouthampton.org.uk/breakout/lovelanguages.php

Eating candy floss

2007-06-19T15:36:00.000+08:00

How do you eat ur candy floss??? Ken looks intently at the candy floss, wondering how to eat it... Hahaha... Cos he claims that his mom didnt teach him??? Hmmm...

Some eat it like corn... Some use their fingers and take out a part to eat... Some lick... Some untwirl it and eat it... Bite? Lick? Chew? Swallow? Melt? Hmmm....

Ken and I went to new york new york at suntec last thurs for dinner... they got free candy floss there... I laughed my head off looking at how Ken ate... Hahahaha...

Also ate Fried Mars... Super unhealthy... very sweet... but ok la... Dun think i'll order again though... too sweet le...

From the other view...

Hee... Me entertaining myself while he plays "MY HP"... Haiz...

Irritated by me... He pauses to start examining the candy floss... Hahahaha...

Anyway, the candy floss there seems to be apple flavoured... Can taste apple taste... Hee... The food there was nice, quite affordable... We over-ordered that day cos we were both nt very hungry... Then got 2 sets, an appetiser n a dessert n candy flosses... But a nice day... Hee....

So proud of SUN!!!

2007-06-19T09:59:00.000+08:00

I came across Ken's face on Sun's blog!!! Hahaha... He was standing behind her... Dennis' also... Literally behind her all the way yeah? Hee... And on youtube... A video of the day we went to jie ji... Wahahaha...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=I3LhtqrlaOM

Oh... Just surfed and found more photos... Wahahaha... Got yuanxing n me too... Hee... Sun's Blog... http://www.wretch.cc/blog/helloSUN

Can see Ken n Dennis in the corner on the left top??? <====

Can see a head in the background? Hmmm... Half a head? That's yuanxing... ===>

Mine biggest!!! Full body shot... Wahahaha... Hee... The one in white Fila jacket??? Hee...

Was just looking through her website... Like what Elim shares, it's really tiring... I watched her videos of her performances, she gives her 110% in all the dances n singing... Really tiring... So gotten keep her in prayers... Read one article... Named her the light of the chinese!!! So proud of her... Jiayou wor, SUN!!!

Pride Of The Chinese - By Greenie Hsiao and Sharon Chew
Hong Kong (17 April 2007)—Entertainment magazine Kuai Zhou Kan reported that the crowd at Sun’s autograph session-cum-concert more than doubled the turnout for Stefanie Sun’s session. What’s more, the report hailed her as the “Light of the Chinese,” superseding Coco Lee because of her achievements in topping the American charts with her US dance singles.
The singer acknowledged that since winning “The Outstanding Young Person of the World Award” in 2003, her main focus has been to continue using her music to help hurting people. The report also featured the singer modeling some of the jewelry pieces she designed herself.
When asked about her plans for the Hong Kong market, Sun replied that she hopes to work with Sammi Cheng in the future.

Just got my Sun's ezlink!!! Hee... So happy...

Resol not very good cos taken with my hp now... Wahahaha...

Still in Tuas...

2007-06-18T17:47:00.000+08:00

I wanna go home... But... I didnt withdraw enough money... So have to wait for the others to send me home, then I wont need to foot the cab fare... Hmmm... So have been surfing the net... Found a website which forecast how long u'll live... Did the test and found that I should be able to live til 82 years old... Hmmm...

http://www.bored.com/deathforecast/index.php

Then realised the net really has lots of things... got www.bored.com www.i-am-bored.com and so on... Just explains who these sites are for... And I was bored... Hahaha... Managed to entertain myself for today... Looking at the number of posts I put up today... Hmmmm.... Hahahaa... Hope I did entertain some bored ppl too... Hahahah...

So u think ur spelling is good???

2007-06-18T14:48:00.000+08:00

Take this quizzes n examine urself... Hee...

http://www.badspelling.com/
I got 7 wrong for the 1st one... ave mistake was 14, so i better than ave... Hahha...
2nd one 5 wrong, ave was 12, so i still better than ave... Yeah... Let's try the 3rd one...
6 wrong.. Ave was 11... Hmmm... Let's see the 4th one -
9 wrong... Ave was 12... Hmmm... It's not good... Last one...
5 wrong... Ave mistake was 13... Hmmm... Not bad huh? Hahaha...

GO take and see ur spelling std ya? Dun keep thinking u're good... Wahahaha

Influencer

2007-06-18T13:24:00.000+08:00

Came across this game...

http://www.bored.com/boomshine/index.htm

As the ripples begin to found and more spots are exploded, I begin to see a msg which God is trying to tell me... Sometimes u will want the ripples to stay there a while more then 1 more spot can be exploded but it just doesnt and as a result, the spot is not exploded. Similarly in our reaching out. We are so close to integrating one more person then we think to ourselves, haiz, we've tried so long already... I think if he wants to respond, he would have done it and we withdraw our hand... Like the ripple disappearing and the spot will not explode... Cos the person no longer finds the hand reached out...

Dunno if u understand wat i saying... But anyway, just play the game as a challenge... I've completed it twice le... Wahahaha... Marks was 268 for both...

Sleepy today...

2007-06-18T11:14:00.000+08:00

Monday blues... Haiz... Just weird... Slept super early last nite to prepare myself for work... Ard 1130 like that i went to bed... Then woke at at 530!!! Haiz... Then went back to sleep til 715 like that then got to go prepare to leave home. Left home ard 8... 1st time i knock out in the cab to here... Dunno why so tired... Eyes still blurry...

Then nothing much left to do, just waiting and pending for the things to get back so stone... Haiz... Ok, enough of sighing...

On the bright side, I have the meeting room to myself... I'm alone in the room, can do whatever I want... Can listen to music, can talk on the phone, can surf net... It's not that bad after all. I wanna do work but seems like nothing much of work need to be done today... I guess I should start planning what to do next week... Hee... Starting from friday... One more week of leave... But after that is work le... After next week's leave, I got to settle back to the working and piaing mood le... It'll be all the way from Jul to Sep... So need to rest now to gear myself up... Yeah... Yoyoyo... Wahahaha...

My Testimony...

2007-06-18T08:59:00.000+08:00

Hahaha... Shared my testimony during the outreach on sat at the prawn fishing... For those who did not catch it... Hee...

Today, I’m here to share of God’s goodness in my life. I grew up as the eldest daughter in a traditional chinese family. In school, I had good academic results and get along well with my classmates. I have a cousin who is one year older than me and my dad will always compare me with him. So my aim at that time was to do well so that I can ‘win face’ for my dad. As such, my childhood has been a very striving one.

In sec school I got to know Kenneth. Towards the end of sec 4, he invited me to go for a Christmas celebration service. I agreed to go because he told me that it’ll be very fun. But the day before, I told my mom about it and she refused to let me go. So I told Ken that I can’t go. But Ken did not give up; he began sharing with me things and principles which he has learnt during service. He told me who Jesus was and that Jesus has taken my sins upon Himself and died on the cross for me so that I can be reconciled back to God, the Father. I was touched. I couldn’t imagine why and how someone would do it. This left an impression in my heart.

Then in 2000, I chose to go to SAJC with Ken and there I got to know God better through the chapel services. I remember that during the Easter drama in school, I was really touched by God. I wanted to be reconciled back to God but I didn’t dare to respond. That weekend, I accepted Ken’s invitation and went for City Harvest Church Easter service at indoor stadium and there I gave my heart to Jesus. From then on, life began to have a different goal. No longer do I study for my dad; but for God. I want to do well to be an influencer in my class so that they also want to be like me and I can bring them to church.

At the same time, I began to commit myself to church services and cell group meetings. It was tough in the beginning, but I remember that my cell group members will call me up during the week to share with me their revelations and pray with me. I used to go for makeup cell group every sat instead of thurs night as it’ll end late and I didn’t want my parents to know that I was attending cg meetings. Then I will attend the sat service so that I do not need to go out so early every sun morning. So every sat, Ken will always accompany me to the cg meeting and then for service, one of my cell group member will also accompany me for service. Soon I got used to it; until one day, my cell group leader challenged me to step out and trust God that I’ll be able to attend my own cell group meeting and service. So I began to attend cell group meeting and service with my cell group. I would tell my parents that I was studying outside til late on thurs nights and I was going out with Ken every Sun morning. Until one day my cell group member challenged me to tell them the truth. She called me on sat night and prayed with me for boldness. That night I told my mom that I’ll be going for church service the next morn and went to sleep immediately. The next day, I woke up super early and left home so that she will not have the chance to stop me. And indeed God is good, my parents didn’t whack me or scold me when I returned home on sun.

During my stay in SAJC, Ken, Wanyun and I will travel down from school to power house weekly (during that time, the church premise was opened for members to pray). So we usually meet on wed or thurs to pray together. It was during this time when we learnt to pray and seek God, read the bible and fellowshipped.

Indeed God is good, I managed to get AAB for my ‘A’ levels and got into accountancy course in Uni, the course of my dreams. After graduation, I managed to get into Deloitte, one of the Big Four accounting firms in Singapore. In the past one and half year, God has been with me. He gave me strength to go through the long days and nights during the peak period and also favour with man – my colleagues, superiors and clients. Up to date, I have not missed a single service nor cell group meeting because of my work or studies.

Friends, the goodness of God did not stop there. During this period of time, as I also gave sacrificially to the building fund; and God brought an increase to my salary. This increase was not just for me, but it was across the whole industry. Indeed God is a God who does exceedingly, abundantly, above what we can ever ask or imagine. As we give to Him, He blesses not only us but the people around us are blessed too (because of us).

I believe that as we seek first the kingdom of God, all the things that we need or want will be added to us. During the past 7 years, God has brought me from a timid and shy girl to a confident and outspoken woman. Holy Spirit is always with me, reminding me of the promises which God has made with me; encouraging me when I feel down or insecure. I believe that in the coming years, greater things will be accomplished in my life as I walk closer with Him. Hallelujah!

Ken n I are so different...

2007-06-14T11:28:00.000+08:00

No, we didnt quarel, everything is still fine... We even went out on a date last nite... Hahaha... Went vivo to kan feng jing... Hahaha... So romantic huh? No lo, it's cos the movie we wanted to watch was sold out... Then he was feeling cold so wanted to go outdoors... So we stood there looking at the cruise Virgo (we were on board b4... A few years back, with Yun n his mom n my family... Hee...) then looking at Sentosa...

Oh, where was I? Ya, Ken n I are so different... Was just thinking abt morning person and night person... Ken is a morning person and I am a night person... I totally cannot make it in the morning... As the day passes, I'll 'wake up' and by nite, I'll usually be in a better mood... Can work le... Hahaha... Should work nite shift jobs huh? I can work til wee hours, just dun ask me to wake up early to work... I totally detest it...

On the other hand, Ken is a morning person... He will be bright and chirpy in the morning and at nite... Wa... Like a super grouchy person lo... Hahaha... Super cold, super sian-ed face... Hahaha... He cannot work late one, he sure doze off... But he can wake up early in the morning and do work and be super efficient...

There were a few occasions where we met to go for svc together, then he kept wanting to talk, wanting to share with me stuff, but I was so sleepy... So irritated by him... And by the end of day, say after service on the way home, he would have finished his 'quota' of words... And tired le... While I would have 'woken up' and I'll talk but he'll want to sleep... Haiz...

Well well... Hahaha... But it's interesting how people who are different are brought together... In this way, it ensures that one party is listening or rather we take turns to talk... Hmmmmm... Haha... Just a bo liao entry... But we realised that we sometimes do think alike... So scary... Hahaha... Just read his blog, he also talked abt morning people... His friend is not a morning person... Somehow i feel that there are not many morning ppl, more nite ppl... Hahahah... Am I rite or nt? Hmmmm... Nvr do any research... But i do know of colleagues who are morning ppl... I AM NOT!!! So hope that I wont need to go to office early early in the morning... Say 8am? 9am still ok... But 830 is already a struggle... God help me... Core training coming soon...

Don't take the last donut!!!

2007-06-13T15:21:00.000+08:00

Reading this book now... Not now now but just started reading this book cos i thought the title looks interesting... Hee... Oh... I didnt buy the book... It's an e-book... Hee... I copied and pasted it in word so that I can read even when I offline... Oops... Shhhhhhhh....

Yep, so it talks abt business etiquette, what things to take note in telephone conversation, how to clinch business deals and attires and so on... Interesting... I always like this kind of thing, soft skills...

As I grow older, I really begin to see how ignorant I am and I desire to learn more... Even as I have left school, learning nvr stops, but the avenue has changed. I learn from various sources on my own, no more exams, no more pressure to complete the learning... But this requires much much more self-discipline. And motivation...

As I grow older, I learn that in order to progress on, I need to constantly challenge myself. Constantly push my limits in order to maximse my life, realise my potential... Easily said than done... But I choose to believe that the ppl ard me, even the non-christians are thinking of ways to upgrade themselves, what more God's ppl. We shld be the leaders and so we lead them... And we 1st need to be better equipped than them...

So get off ur couch!!! U think it's just me learning? Everyone shld be learning something new everyday!!!

Update...

2007-06-12T17:05:00.000+08:00

Wow!!! Realised that I havent blogged for the past 14 days... been on leave and everyday i reach home, my siblings are either hogging the comp, playing or the comp is off, dun wanna switch it on... So havent been updating... Am at Tuas now... At client's place... For once, I get a Tuas job... Hahaha... At far end of Tuas though... Anyway, just waiting to knock off now... Cos the work starts tml, today is the 1st day i'm here so just getting the hang of things...

Emerge was good... Especially Sat session... God asked me if I'll allow Him to gird me, bring me to place which I dun want to... I really need to pray...

Was telling ken that i'll consider staying for one more year... He was very happy abt it... But not me... Haiz... I need some quiet time to seek Him...

The leave which just passed was so packed...
30th may - work, Khen theen's bday celebration
31st may - emerge
1st june - emerge
2nd june - carol's one mth celebration, emerge
3rd june - emerge, moving
4th june - window shopping in spore, mom's bday celebration
5th june - went m'sia to watch Shrek 3, shop n makan - I finally ate my blackforest cake!!! Hahaha...
6th june - suntan, movie - Zodiac
7th june - do admin, makan dinner at army market, cg
8th june - met jingwei for lunch, see doc, unpack
9th june - dim sum with shen, window shopping at Marina, svc
10th june - svc, pm, dinner at ken's
11th june - meng's grad, pm

Hmmm... I think got more activities in between la, but i cant remember le... Wahahaha... So have been very busy, think the next break muz really really take time off to seek God for directions...

Debbie's blog...

2007-05-30T03:07:00.000+08:00

Just realised Debbie has a blog... Really glad to have known her, she has grown so much from the 1st time I knew her... So much, so much... Such a willing attitude and a cheerful gal, nothing can get her down, always smiley... :)

http://minjo.multiply.com/

Oh ya, so pretty now also... Hee...

An update...

2007-05-30T01:52:00.000+08:00

Yes, I know I havent been blogging for the past few days... Cos I'm back in office and they blocked the blogspot... Yep, so cant blog, cant read blogs, cant watch online clips, sermons, podcasts, cant surf lots of sites... So irritating... Hahaha.... And I've been working hard...

Sat had to go back to work for a few hours, then mon we worked til 4am? Yes... then went hm and took a nap... I reached office at 1130 this morn... Then left at 1am... then now blogging... But I know it's going to be over soon... I keep telling myself, you can do it; God is with you... I kept praying in tongues under my breath.. Listening to christian music n sun's songs while i work... This has kept me going for the past days...

My mgr commented that i still look very fresh, like i slacking... Haiz... I'm not ok, jut waiting for work to come in, then rush then wait then rush... Yep... But i really thank God for the strength... During this few days, although the lack of sleep and everything, but i'm still strong.... Physically and mentally... Quite excited for the upcomin emerge... Yeah!!!

And I know that there's only one more day to go... Then will be able to enjoy the emerge, get a new direction and then my toil will come... Been writing a list of things which I wanna do... Wow!!! The list just gets longer each day... Hahaha... But really looking forward to the comin days... It's exciting times... For now, i need to go sleep le, recuperate... Oh ya, jio my friends to join me for emerge weekend... Wanna them to enjoy themselves too, have fun n catch up also... :)

So tired...

2007-05-25T05:32:00.000+08:00

Just finished my work... Came back after zone meeting and started doing... Just finished... Going to take a nap and then off to work... Hope I can sustain thru the day... But thank God it's fri le!!! Just a few more hours to go... I wanna go v-tea room and eat... I worked hard... I wanna reward myself...

Learnt abt 8 fatal flaws in a person during zone meeting... Totally blessed by it and no regrets abt having to work til now aft that... God give me strength and a clear mind to go thru the last working day of the week...

Oh ya, you know wat? My mom and bro are up le, getting ready for school and work... I better stop now and go take a short nap... Really tired...

Dun put out other ppl's fire!!!

2007-05-24T09:48:00.000+08:00

When ppl are on fire for God, hungry for the word... Dun go discourage them and put them down!!! Rather evaluate urself... Esp if you have been a Christian for a longer time then you ought to be more in love with God and be an example!!! Not to make ppl feel that being on fire for God is wrong... The bible says in Revelation that you need to make a stand, either be hot or cold. Dun be luke warm, or He'll vomit you out...

So... I really feel that it's time to evaluate ourselves during this period of time. Especially your attitude towards this coming emerge conference. Indeed our God is a God who can do exceedingly, abundantly, above what we can ever ask or imagine; if we will honur Him in everything which we do. So dun be a stumbling block!!!

So blessed that you've taken things for granted...

2007-05-23T10:15:00.000+08:00

Emerge is just round the corner. For many of the ppl in my cg, this is their 1st emerge. But wat is emerge? I've been to all the emerge conferences we've had. Each year Pst will share a word which he feels will minister to the youths in our generation. And every year there'll be new songs written just for this conference. Each year, the emerge just gets more and more exciting. More and more events but as a result, some of the younger ppl (in the Lord) has failed to understand the need for this conference.

This year is no exception. I've already applied leave in order to attend this conference. In fact, I went to send email to my snr cos I really wanted to go and he allowed, he approved my leave. But what is emerge to me now? I've been in the workforce for 2 years but yet I still come for emerge... Cos firstly, emerge is a youth conference... I'm still a youth!!! Still not 25 yet ok?! Secondly, my cg is made up of so many youths. I want to be able to share and relate wat they're going thru, this new wave, i dun wan to be lost in my own world. I assume that all the schooling ppl are coming for all the sessions unless they are working, and even if they are working, i think they'll only miss one session, fri morn one... Yep... And thirdly, I know that Pst is going to preach a relevant msg which will bring us (youths) up another spiritual level and a direction which he'll share during emerge. So I dun wanna miss out on all these!!!

I've been talking to Ken, he feels so burdened... I feel that it's time to evaluate urself. What do you see this emerge conference? Is it just a time to queuing, having fun, getting to know ppl in ur sch fr our church? Or is there another reason behind it? Pst wants our youths to be on fire for God. All the competitions are to allow ppl to discover their hidden talents and to build school cohesiveness. Thru events like POS, you really get to know ppl in your sch, build up the friendship before you can start to evangelise to one another's friends and bring revival to the school. Many a times, I see so many ppl training hard for the competitions in order to win, they forgot abt the reason this emerge is for. They get so physically tired that they have no more energy to think abt soul-winning... They fall asleep during class cos they had spent late nites doing tut aft return from the training. Then it's time to evaluate!!! Emerge is a good time for you to build up friendship but you are called to be the light of the world!!! Be a good testimonial in school!!!

And i know some ppl are having attachment and cant come for all the sessions. But my qn to you is... What is ur attitude behind?

'I purposely go attachment so that I dun have to come for all the sessions. You know very siong? I live on the other end of spore. and my grades depends on this attachment. I'm called to be a light in the mktplace. i need to go work. dun expect me to commit too much, i got to sleep early on thurs nite cos i got work on fri. so i cant come for the nite sessions. Moreover, my parents also wont allow me to stay out so late'

Come on la... How often do you have emerge?! I've been in the workforce for 2 years and i still take leave to come for this emerge lo. I also live in jurong. it take 1 hr plus to travel down for me as well. and how old are you le? do you need your parents to decide wat time you need to sleep and eat and bathe and wake up??? I dun mean to ask you to be unfilial or rude towards ur parents but how long are you going to be totally controlled by them? They are human too, they have their own lives and I have mine. I want to live a fulfilling life in my lifetime and not regret when I grow older. So there're certain things which i will make a stand for and going for emerge and services is one of them.

And for attachment, I dunno if taking leave is allowed. But i feel that the attitude is very impt. Wat attitude do you have? You dun have to answer me, but you yourself know it. How hungry are you for God? Have you stepped out in faith and asked if you can take leave or just act blur, attachment so cannot come. Act blur live longer? Oh please... I dun mean you dun go work and come then it shows that you're hungry for God, on fire. But I mean wat is ur attitude behind it? Only you yourself know the condition of your heart.

I just feel so sad when I know that there are some ppl who are not coming for most of the sessions... Me, a working adult, took leave so that I wont miss out on this move of God and haiz... Pst is fasting and praying and preparing for a great message to share with us. And there're some many ppl who are going to fly in, travel in all the way from so many countries to join us. But ppl who are so close, so near (in spore) cant even make the effort to come. This is so saddening... So much for attending the sermon on the mount??? Blessed are the poor in spirit... Are you still hungry for more? Or are you satisfied? It's time to evaluate yourself... After being in the church for the past 7 years... I'm now more serious for God, as i come to know Him more and more, I feel more and more dependent on Him. How abt you??? It's time to ask yourself...

Oh God, let him who has a heart perceive what You have prepared for them. God help us to understand the things which are happening now. We need a deeper hunger... Move in our midst...

To be a tither

2007-05-20T22:01:00.000+08:00

Just a thought that went thru my head as I was traveling down for service this morning...

God calls us to be tithers, giving Him 10% of the increase He has given to us. Our every breath comes from God, for each minute we live, our life is increased (lengthened) by that one minute... So we should also tithe our time to Him.

Let's look at it from a mathematical perspective, a weekly basis.
One day is 24 hrs.
One wk is 7 days ==> 168 hours
10% ==> 16.8 hours, approximately 17 hours.
Ask yourself, do you give God 17 hours every week?

Let's see. Assume that you go for bible study n cg n svc once every wk.
Assumed timings...
BS = 1.5 hrs
CG = 2.5 hrs
Svc = 3 hrs
Total = 7 hours...
And since Pst is preaching on the sermon on the mount, we come for sat svc also ==> 10 hrs.

This means that we still need to pray at least an hour every day before we hit 17!!! And this is not inclusive of 'offerings' and 'sacrificial pledge'... Finances applied to time wise... AND.... The assumed timings are longer than the usual time lengths of these activites. AND... It's based on the assumption that you attend 2 svces, one cg n bs every wk!!! So we should be praying longer each day if we do not do the above...

God says if we tithe, we can test God in this area and see if He blesses us back... Not that He'll give us 26.4 hours a day instead of the usual 24 hours. Time wont increase like that... Dun be illogical or flaky... But God will give us better time mgmt, He will give us favour... Are you wondering why you do not have enoug time??? So if you want increased time??? Then ask yourself... Have you tithe?

This is just my personal opinion... My point of view... You dun have to agree... But no harm testing it out right? Seek 1st the kingdom of God and all these things shall be added to you...

I like this song...

2007-05-20T21:56:00.000+08:00

Who am I
That You would know me from the start
Set me apart

Who am I
That You would place eternity into my heart

You have given to me
More than this world could give
My purpose is found in You

One life
I lay at your altar
One love
I have with you
Touch me again
Fill me as you hold my outstretched hands

One word
You know I will follow
One heart
Broken to you
Use me again
Your mercies follow me for all my days

In your presence
In your power
Holy Spirit I surrender

Disclaimer: Not sure if there're any wrong words or typo... Typed based on my recollection of the song...

Word in season...

2007-05-18T23:57:00.000+08:00

Just came back from cg... So blessed... Not just by the presence of God... But by the word that was given... God is good...

Had been feeling a bit down for the past week... Think too bored... Hahha... The work came in yesterday afternoon n since then been busy like siao so no time to hu si luan xiang... Hahaha...

On wed was feeling quite sian cos i went for bs and ganna suaned by my snr. Then was blessed by the bs mightily. Caught a word and a deep desire to be one who changes the spiritual atmosphere once I open my mouth to give a word or pray... But was discouraged further when i talked to someone abt wat that snr said cos he said bs is gd but u dun have to go 4 tt lesson if u gt work to do... Gt to be wise... But i held on to God's word, that as I seek 1st the kingdom of God all these things shall be added to me...

But thru that bs, God opened a way for me. The snr asked on thurs,

today no bible study?

No... But tml got.

Wah, so many one ah?

Tml is cell group meeting. Different.

Ok. So tml cant stay late?

Ya.

Hahaha... Yep, cant stay late... He let me leave at 7+... Hee... Managed to reach cg place w/o missing the game... Yeah... Then b4 I left, he had a meetin to discuss what to do next. So the conclusion was got to work this wkend. Well, I'm fine with it as long as it doesnt clash with svc time. Then the snr say sun morn is out... Cos Hazel got to go church, rite? *turning towards me* Which I just smiled at him and ya. Then we decided to come back on Sun afternoon to work. So I'm alright with it. But indeed God is good. Through that bs, he gave me fabour with my snr such that i can go svc n cg... God's ways are higher than our ways... So blessed to be walking under His covering...

But the exciting thing is not just that... Today in cg, msg talked abt having a broken n contrite heart. And Qingyuan prayed for me... Word was given...

I see abundance of grace in your life. God sees your heart. You are a woman of great virtue and grace. Do not walk in the shadow of your bf, ur cgl. Do not think that you cannot do it or not capable enough. God will call you out. Grace and love just flow into Huiqin right now...

I teared... I was feeling so confused and so sad on thurs morn... So lost, dunno what's the next step... But God begin to unveil His plans for me as I cont this walk with Him...

Thanks Dennis for ur enlightenment... It did help... Hahaha... At least I know my next step... To complete this job... As in this assignment... Hahaha... No la, nt just that. But am quite excited. Cos things are going to change after emerge...

I'm going to start talking to ppl b4 i make this decision... This crucial decision... This is an impt time... To stay n get CPA or go n venture... I shld know b4 sep... or maybe jul... Do keep me in prayers as I make this impt decision... It'll really determine my future... God is bringing me somewhere... Really a fear conquering year... Hmmmm... It's challenging... But exciting... Led by the spirit... Wow!!! Hahaha...

Yep... As for now... As the thunder sounds softly... As the rain begins to fall... I planning to get a good nite's rest... Completed work le... Waiting for client again... Really hope will be able to meet the dateline... For now... Nitez...

Crossroads...

2007-05-17T09:16:00.000+08:00

It's 2 years after I've graduated and I've started working for 2 years... Now it's time to stop and think abt my future again. Thinking back... I've always wanted to do acctancy course cos it was the highly sought for course... And it had fetched the highest starting pay (in the past). I think things have changed. Now accts asst / auditor no longer get a high starting pay (relatively) to other jobs. No, I dun regret taking this course... But I ready need to think what I wanna do in the future... What does one needs a CPA for? I always wanted to get it... But I nvr understood what that is for. As a result, without a reason, I find it hard to press on... Haiz... Can someone enlighten me? I see it as a norm for ppl to grad then work 3 yrs to get CPA then move onto other areas. But wat is the CPA for? If I dun need it, then I dun need to pay the subscription and go thru the 1 wk course...

Sometimes I feel that I dun have the qualification or not capable enough to take up new jobs, the requirements look so daunting... Should I stay on? Should I move on? Feeling so frustrated... Exhausted...

Looking fresh...

2007-05-16T09:22:00.000+08:00

Just reached my client's place... Hee... Waiting and waiting for the past 2 days le... The schedules are not ready yet so still waiting... I managed to leave home rather early today... Caught the 0752 502B to reach here before 915... Earlier than the past few days le. Slept on the bus but not as long as compared to yesterday...

My face looks so much chubbler than before... Jialat... Haiz... Think it's time to hit the gym... But my shoes spoilt le... The sole came off!

Hahaha... So what should I do now? I got a vcd to watch but my laptop got no CD drive. Haiz.. Think I just enjoy the nice scenery and wait for lunch... Anybody wanna meet me up? Will be in city hall area for the next 3 weeks I think... Hee...

Nice View with evidence

2007-05-15T21:58:00.000+08:00

The most left view from the client's office... Nice... Singapore flyer... Hee....

The front left view... Blocked by Ritz Carlton but can imagine the view behind it... The bridge and the sea?

The front right view... The front building is the oriental... To the right a bit is the esplanade...

In the background is the CBD...

The most right view... The Pan Pacific... Hee... Told u the view is nice rite? Agree? Hahaha... That's one thing good abt being an auditor, can go diff office and enjoy the nice scenery... Wahahaha... ;o)

Nice view...

2007-05-15T13:08:00.000+08:00

Am in my client's office at millenia towers... Sitting beside the window and waiting while my lunch gets digested... Enjoying the breathtaking view from this place... Nice... Except blocked by Ritz Carlton... Hahah... But ok la, can imagine the sea behind it... Can even see the Singapore Flyer!!! Hee... Muz sit on the table then can see the full view, which I obviously wont do la... Should I take some photos? Hmmm...

But from this height can see Marina Square, the oriental, pan pacific, marina mandarin, esplanade, cbd area... Just nice view... Nice... Can see the cranes, the victoria threatre and many many more... Hee...

Next time I wanna stay in a high rise flat, a high lvl one, then can see nice view everyday... Then I'll be very happy... Hee... For now, back to work... To earn more money, to save up and get married and to buy my flat and then maybe a car? But back to work now...

An update...

2007-05-14T11:31:00.000+08:00

Realised that I havent been posting much this month... Heh... Been rather lazy n sick... Have been coughing for the past dunno how many wks... Haiz... Ppl say the tekong cough will last 3 wks. I wanna see my this cough will end within 3 wks. So sick of it... Been taking medication very faithfully le, i usually not so guai one. but this time round, really very sian of it, wanna it go away faster so I better be more guai. But the medicine makes me so so so drowsy. Cant do anything. The silver cross one stronger. Really knock me out. the raffles medical one not as strong, I still can watch finish one vcd... Hahaha... But have been taking MC... Ken now calls me MC Queen... Haiz...

Been quite busy and hectic, think my body protesting... Need a good rest. But i did rest le wat... After all the medication... Hahaha...

Pst preaching on a new series - Sermon on the Mount... Really good, reminds me of the foundations, the sermons that brought me to where I am today, my core values and beliefs. Jeremy also will be having zone meetings which talks abt relationships... Which is enriching and interesting... Hahaha... After 111 months with Ken, it's time to review and think abt our relationship... Where we're heading...

Ministry wise still ok, given more responsibilities, learn new things and pass on the things I was so used to doing... Was very excited over the last pm we had... Wanted to lead a worship song without a guitar. Thank God there were quite a no of ppl who came to pray, so they sang and we worshipped God b4 the start of the serving or service... Sometimes, after all the prayers, the warring, we really need to quieten down to seek God before we start serving. If not, we'll leave the pm with a warring attitude and when we talk to ppl, we'll subtlely still be very aggressive.... Haha...

Got to go le, think I'll try to update again when I can...

Back...

2007-05-10T16:38:00.000+08:00

Hahaha... Back for almost a week le... Havent updated or posted up anything yet... Hahaha... Been so busy... I'll update again. I hope soon... think can go the picasa to view the photos... I posted up there le. But i forgot the link... Heh... Hmmm... Dennis will know the link... GO ask him la... Heee...