A fear conquering year

This year is going to be a fear conquering year. Nope, I'm not going SOT this year. Not this year for sure, maybe next year, or next next year. Just waiting and hearing, waiting and inclining my ear to Him... Things have changed. The last time when I spoke what I planned to do in the next 5 years. Things change so fast!!! Within just a few weeks, I've lost it...

Lost the joy, the sense of fulfilment. Not my ministry... Nvm... When that day comes then I'll declare. But as for now, I'll just take things as it come. Not chionging all the way le. What's the point? There's no recognition. No fulfilment. No joy. Just plain delivery of results. No fun. No joy. No heart to do it le. Think encouragment is vital. Praise is necessary too. Teamwork is crucial. Not just throw the 'baby' ard...

Anyway, just got news that another gal leaving... One took back her letter, one leaving. Haiz, slightly affected... But I guess, looking at the these she has been getting... I would have left if I were her...

I'll conquer my fear of steeping into the realm of the unknown. It's time to move on... To what? I dunno also... So scary, but so exciting. Looking forward to where I'll be guided to... Praying for open doorways, for wisdom. I need to be really wise in this decision, no regrets in future. No turning back once I sent it in... Haiz... Dunno what I talking le also... But for these few more months, endure... It's 15032007... wah... half a year at least... Think I should just put it on the shelf and focus for now. Just complete the task n submit to my results oriented boss...

Haha... Just saw my JC fren sign in... 'AUDITOR' was his pict... Looking back, I was so on fire, so excited when I was abt to start my career in this area.... But now... Nvm... I still have a little fire burning... Keeping me sane and motivating me to go on... Let's just see what his nick will be in 1.5 years time... Let's just wait n see... Heh....