Just realised Debbie has a blog... Really glad to have known her, she has grown so much from the 1st time I knew her... So much, so much... Such a willing attitude and a cheerful gal, nothing can get her down, always smiley... :)
http://minjo.multiply.com/
Oh ya, so pretty now also... Hee...
Yes, I know I havent been blogging for the past few days... Cos I'm back in office and they blocked the blogspot... Yep, so cant blog, cant read blogs, cant watch online clips, sermons, podcasts, cant surf lots of sites... So irritating... Hahaha.... And I've been working hard...
Sat had to go back to work for a few hours, then mon we worked til 4am? Yes... then went hm and took a nap... I reached office at 1130 this morn... Then left at 1am... then now blogging... But I know it's going to be over soon... I keep telling myself, you can do it; God is with you... I kept praying in tongues under my breath.. Listening to christian music n sun's songs while i work... This has kept me going for the past days...
My mgr commented that i still look very fresh, like i slacking... Haiz... I'm not ok, jut waiting for work to come in, then rush then wait then rush... Yep... But i really thank God for the strength... During this few days, although the lack of sleep and everything, but i'm still strong.... Physically and mentally... Quite excited for the upcomin emerge... Yeah!!!
And I know that there's only one more day to go... Then will be able to enjoy the emerge, get a new direction and then my toil will come... Been writing a list of things which I wanna do... Wow!!! The list just gets longer each day... Hahaha... But really looking forward to the comin days... It's exciting times... For now, i need to go sleep le, recuperate... Oh ya, jio my friends to join me for emerge weekend... Wanna them to enjoy themselves too, have fun n catch up also... :)
Just finished my work... Came back after zone meeting and started doing... Just finished... Going to take a nap and then off to work... Hope I can sustain thru the day... But thank God it's fri le!!! Just a few more hours to go... I wanna go v-tea room and eat... I worked hard... I wanna reward myself...
Learnt abt 8 fatal flaws in a person during zone meeting... Totally blessed by it and no regrets abt having to work til now aft that... God give me strength and a clear mind to go thru the last working day of the week...
Oh ya, you know wat? My mom and bro are up le, getting ready for school and work... I better stop now and go take a short nap... Really tired...
When ppl are on fire for God, hungry for the word... Dun go discourage them and put them down!!! Rather evaluate urself... Esp if you have been a Christian for a longer time then you ought to be more in love with God and be an example!!! Not to make ppl feel that being on fire for God is wrong... The bible says in Revelation that you need to make a stand, either be hot or cold. Dun be luke warm, or He'll vomit you out...
So... I really feel that it's time to evaluate ourselves during this period of time. Especially your attitude towards this coming emerge conference. Indeed our God is a God who can do exceedingly, abundantly, above what we can ever ask or imagine; if we will honur Him in everything which we do. So dun be a stumbling block!!!
Emerge is just round the corner. For many of the ppl in my cg, this is their 1st emerge. But wat is emerge? I've been to all the emerge conferences we've had. Each year Pst will share a word which he feels will minister to the youths in our generation. And every year there'll be new songs written just for this conference. Each year, the emerge just gets more and more exciting. More and more events but as a result, some of the younger ppl (in the Lord) has failed to understand the need for this conference.
This year is no exception. I've already applied leave in order to attend this conference. In fact, I went to send email to my snr cos I really wanted to go and he allowed, he approved my leave. But what is emerge to me now? I've been in the workforce for 2 years but yet I still come for emerge... Cos firstly, emerge is a youth conference... I'm still a youth!!! Still not 25 yet ok?! Secondly, my cg is made up of so many youths. I want to be able to share and relate wat they're going thru, this new wave, i dun wan to be lost in my own world. I assume that all the schooling ppl are coming for all the sessions unless they are working, and even if they are working, i think they'll only miss one session, fri morn one... Yep... And thirdly, I know that Pst is going to preach a relevant msg which will bring us (youths) up another spiritual level and a direction which he'll share during emerge. So I dun wanna miss out on all these!!!
I've been talking to Ken, he feels so burdened... I feel that it's time to evaluate urself. What do you see this emerge conference? Is it just a time to queuing, having fun, getting to know ppl in ur sch fr our church? Or is there another reason behind it? Pst wants our youths to be on fire for God. All the competitions are to allow ppl to discover their hidden talents and to build school cohesiveness. Thru events like POS, you really get to know ppl in your sch, build up the friendship before you can start to evangelise to one another's friends and bring revival to the school. Many a times, I see so many ppl training hard for the competitions in order to win, they forgot abt the reason this emerge is for. They get so physically tired that they have no more energy to think abt soul-winning... They fall asleep during class cos they had spent late nites doing tut aft return from the training. Then it's time to evaluate!!! Emerge is a good time for you to build up friendship but you are called to be the light of the world!!! Be a good testimonial in school!!!
And i know some ppl are having attachment and cant come for all the sessions. But my qn to you is... What is ur attitude behind?
'I purposely go attachment so that I dun have to come for all the sessions. You know very siong? I live on the other end of spore. and my grades depends on this attachment. I'm called to be a light in the mktplace. i need to go work. dun expect me to commit too much, i got to sleep early on thurs nite cos i got work on fri. so i cant come for the nite sessions. Moreover, my parents also wont allow me to stay out so late'
Come on la... How often do you have emerge?! I've been in the workforce for 2 years and i still take leave to come for this emerge lo. I also live in jurong. it take 1 hr plus to travel down for me as well. and how old are you le? do you need your parents to decide wat time you need to sleep and eat and bathe and wake up??? I dun mean to ask you to be unfilial or rude towards ur parents but how long are you going to be totally controlled by them? They are human too, they have their own lives and I have mine. I want to live a fulfilling life in my lifetime and not regret when I grow older. So there're certain things which i will make a stand for and going for emerge and services is one of them.
And for attachment, I dunno if taking leave is allowed. But i feel that the attitude is very impt. Wat attitude do you have? You dun have to answer me, but you yourself know it. How hungry are you for God? Have you stepped out in faith and asked if you can take leave or just act blur, attachment so cannot come. Act blur live longer? Oh please... I dun mean you dun go work and come then it shows that you're hungry for God, on fire. But I mean wat is ur attitude behind it? Only you yourself know the condition of your heart.
I just feel so sad when I know that there are some ppl who are not coming for most of the sessions... Me, a working adult, took leave so that I wont miss out on this move of God and haiz... Pst is fasting and praying and preparing for a great message to share with us. And there're some many ppl who are going to fly in, travel in all the way from so many countries to join us. But ppl who are so close, so near (in spore) cant even make the effort to come. This is so saddening... So much for attending the sermon on the mount??? Blessed are the poor in spirit... Are you still hungry for more? Or are you satisfied? It's time to evaluate yourself... After being in the church for the past 7 years... I'm now more serious for God, as i come to know Him more and more, I feel more and more dependent on Him. How abt you??? It's time to ask yourself...
Oh God, let him who has a heart perceive what You have prepared for them. God help us to understand the things which are happening now. We need a deeper hunger... Move in our midst...
Just a thought that went thru my head as I was traveling down for service this morning...
God calls us to be tithers, giving Him 10% of the increase He has given to us. Our every breath comes from God, for each minute we live, our life is increased (lengthened) by that one minute... So we should also tithe our time to Him.
Let's look at it from a mathematical perspective, a weekly basis.
One day is 24 hrs.
One wk is 7 days ==> 168 hours
10% ==> 16.8 hours, approximately 17 hours.
Ask yourself, do you give God 17 hours every week?
Let's see. Assume that you go for bible study n cg n svc once every wk.
Assumed timings...
BS = 1.5 hrs
CG = 2.5 hrs
Svc = 3 hrs
Total = 7 hours...
And since Pst is preaching on the sermon on the mount, we come for sat svc also ==> 10 hrs.
This means that we still need to pray at least an hour every day before we hit 17!!! And this is not inclusive of 'offerings' and 'sacrificial pledge'... Finances applied to time wise... AND.... The assumed timings are longer than the usual time lengths of these activites. AND... It's based on the assumption that you attend 2 svces, one cg n bs every wk!!! So we should be praying longer each day if we do not do the above...
God says if we tithe, we can test God in this area and see if He blesses us back... Not that He'll give us 26.4 hours a day instead of the usual 24 hours. Time wont increase like that... Dun be illogical or flaky... But God will give us better time mgmt, He will give us favour... Are you wondering why you do not have enoug time??? So if you want increased time??? Then ask yourself... Have you tithe?
This is just my personal opinion... My point of view... You dun have to agree... But no harm testing it out right? Seek 1st the kingdom of God and all these things shall be added to you...
Who am I
That You would know me from the start
Set me apart
Who am I
That You would place eternity into my heart
You have given to me
More than this world could give
My purpose is found in You
One life
I lay at your altar
One love
I have with you
Touch me again
Fill me as you hold my outstretched hands
One word
You know I will follow
One heart
Broken to you
Use me again
Your mercies follow me for all my days
In your presence
In your power
Holy Spirit I surrender
Disclaimer: Not sure if there're any wrong words or typo... Typed based on my recollection of the song...
Just came back from cg... So blessed... Not just by the presence of God... But by the word that was given... God is good...
Had been feeling a bit down for the past week... Think too bored... Hahha... The work came in yesterday afternoon n since then been busy like siao so no time to hu si luan xiang... Hahaha...
On wed was feeling quite sian cos i went for bs and ganna suaned by my snr. Then was blessed by the bs mightily. Caught a word and a deep desire to be one who changes the spiritual atmosphere once I open my mouth to give a word or pray... But was discouraged further when i talked to someone abt wat that snr said cos he said bs is gd but u dun have to go 4 tt lesson if u gt work to do... Gt to be wise... But i held on to God's word, that as I seek 1st the kingdom of God all these things shall be added to me...
But thru that bs, God opened a way for me. The snr asked on thurs,
today no bible study?
No... But tml got.
Wah, so many one ah?
Tml is cell group meeting. Different.
Ok. So tml cant stay late?
Ya.
Hahaha... Yep, cant stay late... He let me leave at 7+... Hee... Managed to reach cg place w/o missing the game... Yeah... Then b4 I left, he had a meetin to discuss what to do next. So the conclusion was got to work this wkend. Well, I'm fine with it as long as it doesnt clash with svc time. Then the snr say sun morn is out... Cos Hazel got to go church, rite? *turning towards me* Which I just smiled at him and ya. Then we decided to come back on Sun afternoon to work. So I'm alright with it. But indeed God is good. Through that bs, he gave me fabour with my snr such that i can go svc n cg... God's ways are higher than our ways... So blessed to be walking under His covering...
But the exciting thing is not just that... Today in cg, msg talked abt having a broken n contrite heart. And Qingyuan prayed for me... Word was given...
I see abundance of grace in your life. God sees your heart. You are a woman of great virtue and grace. Do not walk in the shadow of your bf, ur cgl. Do not think that you cannot do it or not capable enough. God will call you out. Grace and love just flow into Huiqin right now...
I teared... I was feeling so confused and so sad on thurs morn... So lost, dunno what's the next step... But God begin to unveil His plans for me as I cont this walk with Him...
Thanks Dennis for ur enlightenment... It did help... Hahaha... At least I know my next step... To complete this job... As in this assignment... Hahaha... No la, nt just that. But am quite excited. Cos things are going to change after emerge...
I'm going to start talking to ppl b4 i make this decision... This crucial decision... This is an impt time... To stay n get CPA or go n venture... I shld know b4 sep... or maybe jul... Do keep me in prayers as I make this impt decision... It'll really determine my future... God is bringing me somewhere... Really a fear conquering year... Hmmmm... It's challenging... But exciting... Led by the spirit... Wow!!! Hahaha...
Yep... As for now... As the thunder sounds softly... As the rain begins to fall... I planning to get a good nite's rest... Completed work le... Waiting for client again... Really hope will be able to meet the dateline... For now... Nitez...
It's 2 years after I've graduated and I've started working for 2 years... Now it's time to stop and think abt my future again. Thinking back... I've always wanted to do acctancy course cos it was the highly sought for course... And it had fetched the highest starting pay (in the past). I think things have changed. Now accts asst / auditor no longer get a high starting pay (relatively) to other jobs. No, I dun regret taking this course... But I ready need to think what I wanna do in the future... What does one needs a CPA for? I always wanted to get it... But I nvr understood what that is for. As a result, without a reason, I find it hard to press on... Haiz... Can someone enlighten me? I see it as a norm for ppl to grad then work 3 yrs to get CPA then move onto other areas. But wat is the CPA for? If I dun need it, then I dun need to pay the subscription and go thru the 1 wk course...
Sometimes I feel that I dun have the qualification or not capable enough to take up new jobs, the requirements look so daunting... Should I stay on? Should I move on? Feeling so frustrated... Exhausted...
Just reached my client's place... Hee... Waiting and waiting for the past 2 days le... The schedules are not ready yet so still waiting... I managed to leave home rather early today... Caught the 0752 502B to reach here before 915... Earlier than the past few days le. Slept on the bus but not as long as compared to yesterday...
My face looks so much chubbler than before... Jialat... Haiz... Think it's time to hit the gym... But my shoes spoilt le... The sole came off!
Hahaha... So what should I do now? I got a vcd to watch but my laptop got no CD drive. Haiz.. Think I just enjoy the nice scenery and wait for lunch... Anybody wanna meet me up? Will be in city hall area for the next 3 weeks I think... Hee...
The most left view from the client's office... Nice... Singapore flyer... Hee....
The front left view... Blocked by Ritz Carlton but can imagine the view behind it... The bridge and the sea?
The front right view... The front building is the oriental... To the right a bit is the esplanade...
In the background is the CBD...
The most right view... The Pan Pacific... Hee... Told u the view is nice rite? Agree? Hahaha... That's one thing good abt being an auditor, can go diff office and enjoy the nice scenery... Wahahaha... ;o)
Am in my client's office at millenia towers... Sitting beside the window and waiting while my lunch gets digested... Enjoying the breathtaking view from this place... Nice... Except blocked by Ritz Carlton... Hahah... But ok la, can imagine the sea behind it... Can even see the Singapore Flyer!!! Hee... Muz sit on the table then can see the full view, which I obviously wont do la... Should I take some photos? Hmmm...
But from this height can see Marina Square, the oriental, pan pacific, marina mandarin, esplanade, cbd area... Just nice view... Nice... Can see the cranes, the victoria threatre and many many more... Hee...
Next time I wanna stay in a high rise flat, a high lvl one, then can see nice view everyday... Then I'll be very happy... Hee... For now, back to work... To earn more money, to save up and get married and to buy my flat and then maybe a car? But back to work now...
Realised that I havent been posting much this month... Heh... Been rather lazy n sick... Have been coughing for the past dunno how many wks... Haiz... Ppl say the tekong cough will last 3 wks. I wanna see my this cough will end within 3 wks. So sick of it... Been taking medication very faithfully le, i usually not so guai one. but this time round, really very sian of it, wanna it go away faster so I better be more guai. But the medicine makes me so so so drowsy. Cant do anything. The silver cross one stronger. Really knock me out. the raffles medical one not as strong, I still can watch finish one vcd... Hahaha... But have been taking MC... Ken now calls me MC Queen... Haiz...
Been quite busy and hectic, think my body protesting... Need a good rest. But i did rest le wat... After all the medication... Hahaha...
Pst preaching on a new series - Sermon on the Mount... Really good, reminds me of the foundations, the sermons that brought me to where I am today, my core values and beliefs. Jeremy also will be having zone meetings which talks abt relationships... Which is enriching and interesting... Hahaha... After 111 months with Ken, it's time to review and think abt our relationship... Where we're heading...
Ministry wise still ok, given more responsibilities, learn new things and pass on the things I was so used to doing... Was very excited over the last pm we had... Wanted to lead a worship song without a guitar. Thank God there were quite a no of ppl who came to pray, so they sang and we worshipped God b4 the start of the serving or service... Sometimes, after all the prayers, the warring, we really need to quieten down to seek God before we start serving. If not, we'll leave the pm with a warring attitude and when we talk to ppl, we'll subtlely still be very aggressive.... Haha...
Got to go le, think I'll try to update again when I can...
Hahaha... Back for almost a week le... Havent updated or posted up anything yet... Hahaha... Been so busy... I'll update again. I hope soon... think can go the picasa to view the photos... I posted up there le. But i forgot the link... Heh... Hmmm... Dennis will know the link... GO ask him la... Heee...