Being well read...

Just came back from BS not long... Finally completed the last make up lesson of my FFM... Been some time since I went for BS... Heh... Yep, so happy... Hee...

Was Gabriel who gave the BS... One of the points, being a teacher, you need to be well read. Not just the bible, but also the things that are happening around us. As a teacher, you got to teach your students. Help them to understand the concepts. And then applying them. To be a teacher, you need to love to study, need to live out what you teach, need to internalise the message... ... So many things to do.

But the joy of being a teacher cannot be described. One day, when you see your students finishing the course, moving onto the next phase of their lives. When they start to head towards the goal, the vision you have painted for them. This joy is really overwhelming. No wonder Jesus says enduring the cross, i press on to the upward call of God upon my life. This is worth all the sacrifice. But in order to be a good teacher. You need to be fed. Not necessarily through attending of BS, service. But in your own walk with God, you should be fed... In the end times, where there are no church, will you still worship the Lord your God? The bible says that Daniel did that, just as his custom, even though the decree was sent out to kill everyone who does not worship the idol and worship their own God!

I pray that in the coming year as I grow deeper in my walk with God, that He will show me more truths, more revelations. I pray that my tents will extend, my foundations will be strengthened... I look forward to an exciting year ahead... I'm going to read my new bible once through next year. I'm going to get my driving licence next year. I'm going to get my CPA next year. I'm going to ... ... Exciting!!! 2008 here I come!!! Heh...

Old le...

Stayed up quite late til 2 plus... today so tired, my whole body protesting... going to sleep soon... cant work le... took 3 hrs to get hm from PS... Was just thinking life is quite boring when there are tons of work to be done but cant seem to get moving. Then I took bus home, seeing the bus stop so crowded, i just boarded watever bus comes heading to the west... took 175... Slept, woke up... Realised I was in a jam... there was an accident... Managed to get closer but dunno wat happened. Think involves SBS buses... The bus was in the middle of a cross junction... One of those big ones near bt merah... then jam, bus supposed to go str but the 'injured' bus was blocking, so took a detour... Hmmm... then i read and took 99 home after alighted from 175. Didnt wanna take umbrella out so took one round... yep... went to church there n back, tt's why took 3 hrs la...

went to see denzel after work today... cute... lots of hair... Sleepy boy... Heee... He was 3.885kg!!! A big boy... Yeah, it's going to be exciting seeing him grow up... Hahaha...

Starting to enjoy fellowship with my cg, heh... funny bunch of ppl... Made me laugh so hard tt i couldnt stop in the train... we were like out of the world like that, so full of joy! Yeah... Great week ahead... I confess n I claim it... God help me to be productive. Give me a new vision... God has indeed enlarged my capacity, difficult to say how, but definitely... Greater things to come soon...

Hectic weekend...

Went to meet my ex-colleagues for BF - breakfast on sat morn, then went for my 2nd driving lesson... Felt bad, cos most of the things forgot liao, then feel that didnt learn much... Sad... Then went to NUS to meet Ken, bought lunner for us. then watched svc, did some work n went home.

Sun svc then went out lunch with cg then went home, washed up, went to Ken's... Watched a show... Then home and work for a while... Blogging now then going to sleep le... Tml going out to client's... God sustain me... Long week ahead as well...

God is really enlarging my capacity... This is stretching but I know I can do it with His grace... My almighty God is with me... I can do all things thru Christ who strengthens me!!!! AMEN!!!

Dinner on tues nite

Met Ken for dinner on Tues nite before his meeting... Happened to bump into Joanne and so had dinner with her and Kenneth Lim, Egwin and Lenah (not very sure correct or nt)... But anyway, we ate at park mall la...

And Kenneth Lim asked that qn again... Hahaha... Then over dinner, we got to know that one guy in Joanne's cg is officiated to get attached... Hahahaha... Hmmmm.... Then there is something called the sexual ladder... Which she went thru with him... Interesting... We were quite amused by it... Heh... It was a fun dinner la... Hahaha...

Then I waited for Ken to finish his meeting... Sat at the sofa at the reception there at ymca... Waited for a whole 3 hours... Doing work and reading my story book - the hiding place by Corrie Ten Boom... Read Shaun's blog so went lib to borrow... Exciting man... Then by the time Ken came out, I felt like I was part of the sofa le... Hahaha... Yep yep... Got to go sleep le, if not I'll be sleeping during the update later man...

Training later...

Today's thurs le... Then tml fri... This week been struggling to go to work everyday... Cos there're like thousand and one things to do... But thank God I got my table... Which i'm supposed to share with someone else, but she like always not around... So i use the table lo... Heh... There's a gal who always sit at my place, but she'll siam when I reach, like no need for me to open my mouth, she'll pack up and move... Heh... Thanks gal, you make my day... Not that I unfriendly la, but my things, my files and stationery are in the drawer, under the table la.... But I keep my table real clean, so that's why lots of ppl like to use, gt lan, gt phones nearby... I share my phone with my right side neighbour but she always on the line, so I moved the left phone to near me as well... Hahaha...

Starting to enjoy myself in this group... In the cave, it feels more at home... And we can on or off the aircon!!! Hmmmmmm, an additional aircon la... So good lo, when working late, we still got ventilation. I hope this group of friends wont quit man... I'll feel so sad and sian if they leave... Realised that I need support to work... So need ppl ard me to let me know i'm not going thru this alone... Need to stock up on my food le... Running low... Hee... Wanna meet my friends' needs too... At nite, when ppl are hungry, it's a vey big push factor for those thots to enter ur head... So u make urself happy by eating some chocolate!!! Hahahaa.... I stock up on hello panda... Need more variety... I shld go shopping soon... Yeah... Prepare for the peak man... Maybe some cup noodles also... Hmmmmm.....

Going for training later, technical update... it's outside office, so tml no need to go office... But the webmail gt error leh, cant access... Dunno got impt mails or nt... Then i forgot to put out of office notice... Haiz.... but dun wanna go back office tml leh... No work... my rest day... not really rest, still need to think and go for the technical update. Where ppl who read new standards come and tell you what things have changed and what things we need to look out for in this year....

Been promoted for abt 3 mths +... Things seem more in control, like I can do my planning any time i want. As long as i can finish them, my mgr wont come and hound me. In fact, sometimes i need to hound my mgrs... Hahaha... Yep, cos they got even more jobs on hand than me... And they have more things to handle... Cos they are mentor managers as well... Yep yep... So still trying to adjust to this new kind of responsibility... Helping out as mush as i can also... But I guess there muz be a balance to helping... There's only so much I can do... I got my own things to do as well... Seems a little behind time, my schedule looks quite pack in the coming few weeks... God, mulitply my time... Let my planning be done in super short time, but still quality work... Help me, tell me what to write, what questions to ask... Only you can make a wayyyyyyyyyyyyyyy............

Friday...

This week has really flown past like wa, so fast, it's fri le!!! Oh my God... Despite the short number of working days, it feels like so much things have been done... Hmmmmm, lots of things waiting for me to do... Feel quite tired le. Haiz, peak hasnt started lo... Really need lots of strength and encouragement man...

I wonder where encouragement will come from... Lots of discipleship needs to be done, but ppl are not ready for it. It'll just fall on deaf ears... I pray that everyone's heart will soften. Everyone has a deep deep deep hunger to seek God, love God. The fear of the Lord be so strong upon their lives that they just want to do His will. God, come and move as only you can in this cell. We're willing...

We look to you... Only you can make us wholeeeeeeeeeeee.... This is my prayer today... ... ...

My today... Monday...

Took leave today... Cos I saw the siong weekend which I was going to have last week, so planned ahead... And indeed, i woke up at only 8am today... Heh... Usually i need to leave home by 8am in order to catch the bus... still sick... quite bad indeed... coughing... haiz... dunno how... my throat super irritated... Itchy and pain... Haiz... Strepsils only eases the pain by a little and for a while only... Laid hands on myself n prayed b4 i slept last nite. Think will do that again tml.

Today gave my 1st cl lesson to 3 guys in my cg. the last time i gave bs was also to 3 guys... Also the same lesson, cl 1... But different ppl totally. I was sad... Oops... I already rushed down... Haiz, so sorry... So instead of starting at 1215... I reached slightly before 1230... Then went to somewhere near YIH to have the BS. And 2 of the 3 had yet to get the book. Haiz... Can faint... Then I told myself, lots of things to teach... Really lots... Was feeling quite frustrated at 1st, cos they reached early, then didnt like go zap the notes fr one guy who had bought it! But i look at them, then they were like but copyright rite? Haiyo, not asking u to zap the whole book. Just asking u to zap the notes for that one lesson. then when u get the book, can copy over and DESTROY the set u zapped. And copyright law allows u to reproduce 10% of the book max. You're zapping one lesson --> 10% rite? So think it's allowed... But I muz stress... It's so that u can follow the BS la, not to save money!!! And tell me how are 3 ppl going to share a book??? When we sitting on different side of the bench??? Hai yo... THen i made them go run n zap the notes. And I waited...

I remember last time b4 each BS lesson, I will read the notes on the way down cos I want to prepare myself what pst will be sharing... And it's CL already, not CIC or GS... Haiz... But ok la, the BS went quite alright... With my coughing every other point... Heh... But really hope they received it into their spirits, the imptance of the word of God. I kept telling them abt army... Cos i feel really strongly that they have to start building up their faith and priorities now. If not they sure will backslide during army days. So now is the time to build them up. Make sure they know the word, memorise the word, pray, commit to svc n cg... ... Funny for a gal to teach brothers abt NS rite? hmmm... But i also know quite a lot abt army ok? u can ask shen if u dun believe... Hahaha...

Really quite burdened with the guys in the cg... was looking at pre-service prayer meeting yesterday... The gals were like abt 7 - Meng, jas, rach, tam, devi, min n me. then the guys only gt jan, xing n ken. Nich only reached abt 10 min b4 pm ended. The rest all late, some were unaware, some overslept, some got other excuses. Felt so sad and burdened. Cos u call this an army of God? Where most all the gals chiong-ing??? I dun mean gals cant chiong. But arent guys supposed to lead the pack? arent guys supposed to be the men? Like in our country. Only guys are required to do NS - compulsory... Gals optional - unless u opt to go be officier that kind of manly gals la... If not no need mah... THen our CG like gals are the soldiers, then the guys just like... Haiz... i dunno what to say... So really hope my BS can wake them up. Wake up their idea... If you're serious with God, it's time to make a decision to do the things which will help in your spiritual walk. If i know I cant pray well, my QT not very long, then i will think of ways i can improve. Pray with cg members over the phone every day, come for every pm... Pre-svc or pre-cg... Be hungry for God, press in... And at the end of the day, I know that I'm after God and I can grow faster if I just sleep lesser, sacrifice a little more each day, watch lesser tv, etc...

To me, how to overcome all obstacles is not by reason or mind... Cos God's ways are higher than our ways. Things which I can do in the past is not longer a challenge. Things which it seems impossible to be done, God will help me. He will not give me something which i cannot bear. In every thing that comes my way, it is part of God's plan to change me, increase my capacity... So I know that I need to pray, I need to rely on Him even more. So I wont use my reason, like God can only do this for me if I fulfill my this other obligation. I have to give up this for that, I'm planning for the future... I understand la, but i rather believe that my Abba Father loves me... That He can do exceedingly, abundantly, above what i can ever ask or imagine. So I would rather stretch my faith a little... That God can give me both A n B, not A or B... (Given that both are in the will or God)... I pray that everyone including myself can realy increase our faith in God step by step. Lillian can beleive God for using her to resurrect a boy. My faith is not to that level yet, but I want to dream that, I want to visualise it that one day, I can also do that. So I want to stretch my faith each day... Especially now, BF season, it's an exciting time. Time to take out the sword and shield... So I want to do greater things for God before the year is up...

I'm starting to think of plans for next year le... It's already NOv... VEry soon, u'll take out ur goals card n see if they have been completed... And Start to plan and pray for the next yr... I foresee that Jan to Apr will be busy busy busy... So i want to start planning for next year le... It's nvr too late or too kiasu to start planning now... Hee... THen muz save save save also...

Just went a wedding dinner on sun. The couple knew each other for 7-8 years, dated for half a year and he proposed... THey got married in 5 mths time!!! Ken was just saying, they can celebrate their 1 yr anniversary during their honeymoon or even aft that... I've been with Ken for 9 years n 9 months less 5 days... And wedding is not in the picture yet... haiz... looking ard, ppl are getting married... really can feel a bit sian n sad... but well, at least it's getting closer le... Kenneth Lim would ask Ken when we getting married every time he sees us... Makes Ken feel so stressed... Hahaha... Just realised that Joanne is my age... And she has been married for 2-3 years!!! Hmmm... I wonder when is mine coming... hahaha... Ken suddenly appeared beside me and reading... Got to go le... Hahahaha... wat timing man...

In NUS now...

Had a siong weekend... went to malaysia on Sat for a one day tour... Co event... Paid only 15, the rest sponsored, so why not... Quite fun la... took quite some photos... but lazy to upload into the comp... ok ok, will do so soon...

Here's what we did on sat...
1. Met 10am at Kranji
2. Went to desaru for seafood lunch
3. Went to shop ard the lunch place
4. Went to Ostrich Farm...
5. Went to Desaru fruit farm for a tour and shopping
6. Travel to Kota Tinggi
7. Took ferry to go see fireflies
8. Dinner at Kota Tinggi
9. Home sweet home

Sun was pledging weekend. after svc was fellowship time with the cg at cineleisure ljs... then i went home and prepared myself... freshen up for the dinner at pan-pacific. Sat at the same table with some of the JE leaders... Very funny group of ppl, we laughed our heads off throughout the whole dinner... The food was also not bad and the portion was large... we were all so full at the end of the day. then when we came out, it was pouring.

We had to wait for an hour for a cab!!! haiz... then mon was off... today... great day!!! yeah!

Looking forward...

Although it's the end of the year... Although I've just been thrown 4 more jobs in this week... Although my FY06 job has not close... Although there's tons of work waiting to be done... But I'm still quite happy... Hmmm... Not happy abt the above things, but the things to come...

Will be going for mentor outing to malaysia for 1 day this sat... although not very close with the ppl in the mentor group, but think i shld be able to enjoy myself... just see see lo...

Then the planning for the jobs... Although 4 more just came in, but i hope that i can really finish them before the dateline... I think it's quite possible... God gives me efficiency and favour... And I pray that the joy of the Lord will sustain me... One more year... I know I can... For the grace of God is more than sufficient for me...

Then going to start new round of BS this weekend... Been some time since i last had BS. but i know it's going to be good. A very good avenue to disciple and teach the younger members...

Ministry wise still about the same... Think the move in Dec will result in some discomfort and adjustments, but we'll get used to it very soon... cos we are all changing all the time... Heh...

then just started learning driving... Quite fun... Heh... going to have the next lesson on 17th nov... each lesson spent $39... quite ex but really fun... Haahaha... i really looking forward to the next lesson... Hope that i can pass one time round, then no need to spend so much... Hee...