My today... Monday...

Took leave today... Cos I saw the siong weekend which I was going to have last week, so planned ahead... And indeed, i woke up at only 8am today... Heh... Usually i need to leave home by 8am in order to catch the bus... still sick... quite bad indeed... coughing... haiz... dunno how... my throat super irritated... Itchy and pain... Haiz... Strepsils only eases the pain by a little and for a while only... Laid hands on myself n prayed b4 i slept last nite. Think will do that again tml.

Today gave my 1st cl lesson to 3 guys in my cg. the last time i gave bs was also to 3 guys... Also the same lesson, cl 1... But different ppl totally. I was sad... Oops... I already rushed down... Haiz, so sorry... So instead of starting at 1215... I reached slightly before 1230... Then went to somewhere near YIH to have the BS. And 2 of the 3 had yet to get the book. Haiz... Can faint... Then I told myself, lots of things to teach... Really lots... Was feeling quite frustrated at 1st, cos they reached early, then didnt like go zap the notes fr one guy who had bought it! But i look at them, then they were like but copyright rite? Haiyo, not asking u to zap the whole book. Just asking u to zap the notes for that one lesson. then when u get the book, can copy over and DESTROY the set u zapped. And copyright law allows u to reproduce 10% of the book max. You're zapping one lesson --> 10% rite? So think it's allowed... But I muz stress... It's so that u can follow the BS la, not to save money!!! And tell me how are 3 ppl going to share a book??? When we sitting on different side of the bench??? Hai yo... THen i made them go run n zap the notes. And I waited...

I remember last time b4 each BS lesson, I will read the notes on the way down cos I want to prepare myself what pst will be sharing... And it's CL already, not CIC or GS... Haiz... But ok la, the BS went quite alright... With my coughing every other point... Heh... But really hope they received it into their spirits, the imptance of the word of God. I kept telling them abt army... Cos i feel really strongly that they have to start building up their faith and priorities now. If not they sure will backslide during army days. So now is the time to build them up. Make sure they know the word, memorise the word, pray, commit to svc n cg... ... Funny for a gal to teach brothers abt NS rite? hmmm... But i also know quite a lot abt army ok? u can ask shen if u dun believe... Hahaha...

Really quite burdened with the guys in the cg... was looking at pre-service prayer meeting yesterday... The gals were like abt 7 - Meng, jas, rach, tam, devi, min n me. then the guys only gt jan, xing n ken. Nich only reached abt 10 min b4 pm ended. The rest all late, some were unaware, some overslept, some got other excuses. Felt so sad and burdened. Cos u call this an army of God? Where most all the gals chiong-ing??? I dun mean gals cant chiong. But arent guys supposed to lead the pack? arent guys supposed to be the men? Like in our country. Only guys are required to do NS - compulsory... Gals optional - unless u opt to go be officier that kind of manly gals la... If not no need mah... THen our CG like gals are the soldiers, then the guys just like... Haiz... i dunno what to say... So really hope my BS can wake them up. Wake up their idea... If you're serious with God, it's time to make a decision to do the things which will help in your spiritual walk. If i know I cant pray well, my QT not very long, then i will think of ways i can improve. Pray with cg members over the phone every day, come for every pm... Pre-svc or pre-cg... Be hungry for God, press in... And at the end of the day, I know that I'm after God and I can grow faster if I just sleep lesser, sacrifice a little more each day, watch lesser tv, etc...

To me, how to overcome all obstacles is not by reason or mind... Cos God's ways are higher than our ways. Things which I can do in the past is not longer a challenge. Things which it seems impossible to be done, God will help me. He will not give me something which i cannot bear. In every thing that comes my way, it is part of God's plan to change me, increase my capacity... So I know that I need to pray, I need to rely on Him even more. So I wont use my reason, like God can only do this for me if I fulfill my this other obligation. I have to give up this for that, I'm planning for the future... I understand la, but i rather believe that my Abba Father loves me... That He can do exceedingly, abundantly, above what i can ever ask or imagine. So I would rather stretch my faith a little... That God can give me both A n B, not A or B... (Given that both are in the will or God)... I pray that everyone including myself can realy increase our faith in God step by step. Lillian can beleive God for using her to resurrect a boy. My faith is not to that level yet, but I want to dream that, I want to visualise it that one day, I can also do that. So I want to stretch my faith each day... Especially now, BF season, it's an exciting time. Time to take out the sword and shield... So I want to do greater things for God before the year is up...

I'm starting to think of plans for next year le... It's already NOv... VEry soon, u'll take out ur goals card n see if they have been completed... And Start to plan and pray for the next yr... I foresee that Jan to Apr will be busy busy busy... So i want to start planning for next year le... It's nvr too late or too kiasu to start planning now... Hee... THen muz save save save also...

Just went a wedding dinner on sun. The couple knew each other for 7-8 years, dated for half a year and he proposed... THey got married in 5 mths time!!! Ken was just saying, they can celebrate their 1 yr anniversary during their honeymoon or even aft that... I've been with Ken for 9 years n 9 months less 5 days... And wedding is not in the picture yet... haiz... looking ard, ppl are getting married... really can feel a bit sian n sad... but well, at least it's getting closer le... Kenneth Lim would ask Ken when we getting married every time he sees us... Makes Ken feel so stressed... Hahaha... Just realised that Joanne is my age... And she has been married for 2-3 years!!! Hmmm... I wonder when is mine coming... hahaha... Ken suddenly appeared beside me and reading... Got to go le... Hahahaha... wat timing man...