I'm tired...

It's a sat and I'm at home... Usually will spend my time with Ken at his place... But he got a function to go, so i staying at home and reflecting... The year is coming to an end so soon. Amazing how fast this year flew... Last fri i saw 2 of my colleagues doing their clearances on the last day of work... Haiz... I muz say at that time, my heart was filled with envy... But I decided to focus and do work til the day ended...

There are so many things waiting to be done but I dunno what... Wondering what should be my next job and why I am staying on one more year. I think it's just to prove to myself that I have the capacity to do it. The tenacity. I feel that I have the capacity to go thru this coming year... Indeed God is with me through it all and His grace is more than sufficient for me.

Looking at the cg, can really feel Ken's frustrations at times. But like him, I also feel so helpless at times. We have done what we could... I think the only thing left is to pray and lift it up to God. Only you can make a wwwaaaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyyyy.........

Ministry side still alright, not much changes, my team ICs are good, members who are problematic are more or less gone or under control... Need to keep prayin for God's protection over them and their families and everything is fine...

Even as this year comes to an end, I look at the amount of work that is coming... I feel so tired... You knoe wat I mean rite? Haiz... Was looking thru deb's blog and saw my photo with Ken... Scared me... Hahaha... But she missed me... Me too... How I wish there are more Debs in the cg... Then it'll be a breeze...

I got a word for next year le... Really feel so stretched... Another trying year ahead, but at the end of the year, I look back, I would know that God has moved in my life... Increasing my capacity and teaching me to increase in my faith and trust in Him. Looking forward to the next year... But I need to rest... My mind... As long as there are things not completed, my mind cant rest... I got to learn to handle this area better next year... God help me in my weakness...